TEXTS | BTS

(41) Part IV

BTS as your boyfriend.

series: them finding your old self harm scars for the first time.
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"jagi? are you sleeping?"

you were sleeping before he came in the house, which woke you up. however, you pretended to still be asleep as you kept your eyes closed.

your body was spread out on the couch looking like a hot mess, laying on your stomach with your hands under you cheek.

"baby?"

he questioned moving closer to your body, his body heat was radiating onto you as you felt his face very close to yours. his lips met your cheek, then your eye lid making it flicker a little, then your nose.

"I know you're awake babe."

you tried to hold in your laugh as he said that, he moved his hand along your body making goosebumps rise. you were barely wearing anything as it was so hot, you were just wearing shorts with one of his oversized shirts.

his hands reached under the shirt to tickle your sides which is when you gave him, you jumped slightly smiling widely as he tickled you.

"Jungkook, stop!"

you scream as he holds you in place tickling you everywhere he could.

"I knew you were awake."

your shirt went up slightly revealing your hipbone which you didn't notice until he stopped tickling you running his thumb over your scars lightly.

"Jungkoo-"

"why? y/n, why."

you didn't know how to explain, so you held onto his face making his face you. this is when you realised that he was crying now.

"why are you crying? Jungkook, please stop."

"wh- why did you do this?"

"they're so old, I just-"

he knelt on the floor by your legs as you are now sat up on the couch, his head was on your knees and you felt the tears falling on your bare knees.

"don't ever do it again, please!"

he holds onto you as if he's scared you're going to disappear. you tried to pull him up from the floor but he stayed there crying, sobbing. you felt like it was your fault.

"this is all my fault."

you whisper softly coming down to his level on the floor as well, he instantly sat up and snuggled in your arms. he always loves being the small spoon when he's sick or upset.

"it's not your fault, it's m-mine."

"don't say that Jungkook."

"no I'm serious, I don't pay enough attention to you."

you play with his hair as he draws shapes on your thighs.

"you do, this was a really long time ago I'm okay now."

"don't lie to me."

"okay, but I am better than before."

he sat up excitedly, tears still in his eyes but a small smile on his face.

"we should go on a date!"

"what?"

you giggled.

"let's go."

he stood up running towards the door, before you called out his name stopping his.

"um, I need to change?"

he looks at your outfit before his mouth formers into an 'oh' shape.

"make sure you cover up."

"but it's hot."

"and so are you, I don't want Jimin eyeing you up. come on!"

~ 30/3/18

twice a day.

I'm so much worse today wtf, why am I so sad? ew.

I updated all my books, I'm so proud of myself.

I have nothing to say, I mean I'm just empty inside right now. sorry guys.

I still love you so much