Seasons of Love || Richard Camacho

18

April 2nd

'Hey Richmond, how are you doing?' He rolls his eyes and smiles. 'Hola hermosa, I'm doing fine. And you?' I nod. 'I'm doing great.' lie. 'Ah good to hear. I miss you. It's nice to see your face again.' 'Don't be such a sap.' I stick my tongue out and he does the same. Facetime is a great thing, honestly, but it makes me way more nervous than calling someone. It took me 45 minutes to accept my face, the mirror kept telling me that I should put on a mask so Richard wouldn't be able to see my face. 'How are the boys doing?' 'Oh they are doing fine. Christopher and Erick are texting and skyping with Isa and Katarina non-stop. I think Erick might actually be in love. But I'm not allowed to tell you.' I laugh. 'That's so cute, I'll keep my mouth shut, I promise.' We try to pinky promise through the screen, but it doesn't really work. 'So have you been going to the club lately?' I look at him like he just spat out a slug. 'Why are you asking? Are you checking if I am a slut again?' He looks shocked. 'No, no, absolutely not. I was just asking.' I don't believe him. 'Well, I have been a nice girl, if you really want to know. I am not only a slut now, I am also a homewrecker. So yeah, it's been pretty great.' 'Wait, Summer please. This was not my intention.I I was just wondering, honestly.' I shake my head. 'Why are you and Kat so worried about me? It's not like my life could ever change if I would stop sleeping around. This is my life right now and I am happy most of the time.' I am fighting back the tears. 'I want you to be happy all the time.' 'You don't fucking know me. Why are you being so nice?' Okay, so I might be crying right now and this was not what I expected this facetime to be. 'Summer, you are not happy and you won't be if you don't change your life. I want to help you. But you'll have to trust me.' And there it is. That word. Trust. Trust sucks. You can't fucking trust anyone in this life. 'And what are you going to do? You are on the other side of a very big ocean and you are in a boyband with a very busy schedule.' 'Let's facetime every day. So we can talk about things that bother you and so you can get some distraction every day.' 'So you are distraction?' He chuckles. 'Oh yes I am.' He stretches his arm out and lifts his tank top up. He is showing me his incredible muscles and I can feel myself blushing. 'Aye papi.' He laughs. 'Yeah okay, I get it you are very good at distracting people from life.' He winks and I roll my eyes. The next hour we talk about tour, girls and paparazzi. 'Sorry Summer, time for me to go. Tell Katarina and Isa hi from me. We'll talk tomorrow, yeah?' 'Sure Ricardo. See you tomorrow.'

'You are so in love with him.' 'Not true.' 'Kat is in love with Erick.' 'What the hell Isa, that was not the discussion.' 'But it's true.' 'But Isa is in love with Christopher, so she can't judge me.' Kat points at Isa and I roll off the couch laughing. Kat and Isa burst into laughter as well. 'But girls, I'm not in love with Richard. I would tell you if I was. He is just helping me.' 'Helping you with what?' 'Not sleeping around.' I mumble. 'That's great!' Kat yells. 'We are proud of you!' Isa smiles. 'Thanks girls.' 'Let's make a deal.' 'Kat, I can't handle pressure.' 'If you won't sleep with strangers for one month, I will take you to Barcelona for a long weekend.' 'Are you serious?' She nods. 'Can I tag along if you girls are really going?' Kat slaps Isa against the back of her head. 'Of course you dummy. It'll be a girls trip!' The three of us cheer and raise our glasses up. 'Here's to a new me.' We decide to not leave the house anymore and have a sleepover at my flat instead. It's like a sleepover you see in the movies. Pillow flights, drinking, watching a romcom, singing along to music, trying to sing along to a Spanish song from a very nice boyband, all that. After a while, we are slightly drunk and are sitting on the couch in silence. 'I wish my Spanish was better.' Kat sighs. 'Erick can speak English, right?' She nods. 'But how amazing would it be if I could tell him to fuck me senseless, but in Spanish.' Isa and I burst into laughter. 'I'm serious girls. I-, I-.' She starts laughing as well and tears are streaming down our faces. I jump to stand on the couch. 'Erick, mi papi, boom boom mi until loco por favor.' I wiggle my hips and Isa stands up. 'Nooo it would be like this.' She flips her hair and puts her hands on her hips. 'Erick, mi amor papi papi papi chulo. Mi gusta tu tree trunk into mi coño, por favor.' I start coughing from laughing too much. 'Maybe I should just say it in English.' Kat says while drying her eyes.

When the girls are sleeping, I can't help but think about the deal we made. Barcelona would be great, but what if Richard forgets about me. Or what if I bump into someone on the street or what if I can't handle things anymore? I don't know how to survive an entire month without going out. But if I go out, I don't think I can keep myself from sleeping with someone. Let's just hope Richard is as nice as he seems to be.