I broke down. I tried so hard not to. I didn't want him getting the best of me but he did.
Jess and Brielle decided to end the trip early even though I decided against it. Leave it to me to ruin the fun. I didn't want to go back to LA because I didn't want to see Diego. Just the thought made me want to cry. While on the plane I made a decision I never thought I'd make but I need this or else I'll keep getting hurt by a man who doesn't care about me.
Jess and Brielle of course tried to talk me out of it Jess saying I can live with her but what is left for me in LA? I lost my job, I got kicked out of college and I got my heart fucking shattered. I needed to go home. I knew my parents wouldn't take me back but my Nana would.
As soon as we got off the plane I had Brielle call Ethan to get Diego out of the house so I could get my stuff. I told her not to tell him what I was doing. It's gonna be hard enough leaving Jess and Brielle. I don't want to face Ethan because it would break me even more. He's become like my brother in the time I've known him.
We took an Uber to Jess's house and waited for the text from Ethan saying Diego wasn't home.
When we pulled into Diego's drive way my heart sunk. I didn't even know if I could go inside. I took a deep breath before getting the courage and getting out of the car.
The door was left unlocked and I went upstairs. I grabbed the other suitcase I had out of the closest and started putting all my clothes and other stuff in it. Jess and Brielle helped me with a few other things and we were done within an hour. I sat down on the bed and smiled to myself.
I'll never forget the day I woke up laying next to him for the first time. I was so happy. I wish things were like how they were when he first started dating. I should've know he was going to cheat. He's a famous and he has all these girls literally throwing themselves at him how could he not give in? They are all better than me so why not.
"They are on their way back, Diego forgot to bring is wallet" Brielle said coming back into the room
"I'll be down in a second" I told her
She gave me a sad smile before leaving the room again. I stood up from the bed and took one last look around. I'm gonna miss it.
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First thing the next morning Jess and Brielle took me to the airport. Ethan kept questioning us about last night and why we were leaving so early in the morning. He didn't catch on thank god.
"I'm going to miss you so much!" Jess said pulling me into a hug
"I'm going to miss you more" I said back
Fuck. The tears just poured out.
"I'm literally going to fucking kill him oh my god" Jess said hugging me tighter
I felt Brielle's arm wrap around us. This was a lot harder than I thought it was going to be. These girls have been my rock throughout all this shit I've been with Diego and I couldn't thank them enough for being the most amazing friends I've ever had. Obviously I'm still going to talk to them but not seeing them every day was going to be hard.
"I love you Rae. You are such a strong and amazing person. I'm going to miss your crazy ass" Brielle said
"Stop you guys are making this even harder" I said trying to laugh but it didn't work
I gave them both one last hug before I was off. Once I got done going through security I went to the restroom.
I tried to stop crying I really did but I was so broken inside I couldn't. This was going to be a long flight back to Texas.
Ekat 😾
I'm not mad at you for leaving without saying goodbye. I understand why you wanted to go. Just know I love you and I'm always here for you. Diego doesn't know yet but I'm going to tell him. Your happiness is what's the most important. Have a safe flight Rae. I'm going to miss you more than you know.
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This actually made me really sad to write )))):
