| Two Weeks Later |
I sighed. I tried calling Diego for the millionth time and of course it went straight to voicemail. I was really starting to get frustrated. It's been a couple days and he hasn't answered any of my calls or texts.
I even tried going to his house but he just had himself locked in his room not coming out or saying anything and it was really starting to worry me..
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"He just needs some time Rae" Ethan sighed as I checked my phone for what seemed like the thousandth time today
"It's been a week Ethan! No texts or calls! We can't even get into his house now because he changed the locks! I don't know if he's been eating I'm fucking worried about him" I said trying to fight back the tears that were threatening to spill out.
"I'm sure he's fine" Jess said patting my knee reassuringly
I scoffed. He's not alright. I know he's not. I'm just stupid for not trying harder to make sure he's not hurt. I got up from the couch and decided it was time to take matters into my own hands.
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I pulled into his drive way and quickly got out.
I wasn't exactly sure how I was going to get inside yet. But it I had to break a damn window to get in then that's what I'm going to do. I checked under every mat and plant to see if he had placed an extra key. Nothing.
I checked under everything I could that was outside. I was starting to get frustrated. Why the fuck would he do this? Dammit Diego.
I tried the front door nothing. Back door nothing. Side door nothing. Garage door.....
When it opened my heart exploded. Thank god! It quickly dropped when I noticed his car wasn't here. Fuck.
I quickly ran inside checking every room and I wasn't really surprised when I didn't find him. His bedroom door was wide open.
My heart hurt when I seen empty liquor bottles scattered over his floor. There was clothes everywhere and even broken glass in some places.
He was hurting and I wasn't here to help him...
I seen a folded piece of paper laying on the bed and I went and picked it up.
My name was sloppily written on the front of it. He knew I would come.
I braced myself opening it and read what it said.
Raegan,
I don't know how long after I've left that you're gonna this. Baby I'm so sorry. I'm so fucking sorry for everything I've ever put you through. I'm such a piece of shit. I don't even have the fucking balls to tell you this in person. You deserve so much better than me. You really do. You've given me countless chances and I fucked every single one of them up. I don't even love Grace I never had. I was stupid to leave you in Texas. I hope you can forgive me one day. I really did plan on marrying you one day baby. I was going to go ring shopping and everything but I let fame cloud my vision and fucked up. I'm such a fucked up person. I don't deserve any thing. I want you to be happy without me okay? Move and and live your beautiful life. I know Jess and Ethan will take care of you. The house is yours if you want it. I already switched everything into your name. It's all paid off so don't worry about that. I wish I could've saw your beautiful smile once more... I love you baby girl with all my heart and nothing will ever chance that.
Love always,
Diego
The letter slipped from my hands. I was in complete shock. What did Diego mean? Why does he want me to be happy without him? What did he mean by without him?
I felt numb. My heart breaking all over again.
I took my phone out of my pocket still not sure how to process what I just read.
"Hello?" Ethan answered in the third call
I couldn't talk.
"Hello? Rae are you there? Are you okay?"
"H-he's go-gone" I said suddenly breaking into a sob
"What do you mean he's gone?"
"P-please just come over here"
"Okay I'm leaving right now"
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I sat down on the bed unable to control my tears. I had no clue if Diego was dead or alive. He made it pretty clear that he had no intentions of returning.
Fuck.
Ethan came rushing into the room. Stopping in shock seeing the room such a mess.
"What the hell" He muttered to himself
I didn't say one word to him I just held the letter out to him. He looked at me confused before coming to grab it from me.
"No.. no... this doesn't mean what I thing it does? He couldn't have. He wouldn't" Ethan said shaking his head
"I don't know. His car is gone and I just don't know!" I cried
Everything felt like it was closing in on me. My chest was tightening and my breathing quickened. My tears wouldn't stop and I was shaking.
Ethan noticed and the crying boy sat down beside me trying to calm me down. Nothing absolutely nothing was going to calm me down.
Why would he do this? Why couldn't he just come talk to me. I would've helped him through this. Thinking he could be dead just made everything for me worse. He had so much more to live for.
I love him, I love him so god damn much and he left me... again.
This felt like a never ending cycle with Diego but this was different. He broke me again but in a completely different way.
I was clinging on every ounce of hope I had that he was alive and well just running away for a while. But then again maybe he wasn't... I didn't want to think that way but he made it seem that he didn't want to be alive anymore.
What am I going to do if he did kill himself? I can't live in a world without Diego. We have been through hell with each other but I fucking love him. Without him I'm nothing.
I can't without him. I just can't.
He's the love of my life.
The person I want to spend the rest of my life with.
He's my person.
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