Hatred's Torment

Troubled By Past

Chapter XXXI

Troubled By Past

That was a doomed saturday for him. He didn't sleep. He was looking at the window while lying. He couldn't help himself to think about Mandy's face, and then he would imagine that her face will break apart. All he thought about obtaining peace was something he thought he could achieve but now he realized that he's not meant for obtaining peace.

'I guess this is how life is as what they all say huh...' Toby thought.

'Am I such a jerk who let things happen?'

'I guess I was so stupid...'

'Or... Maybe not.'

'I guess she made me stupid falling inlove with her.'

He took his phone. He didn't open it for a while. He had 7 messages in it. The 2 messages are for 4438. The 4 other messages were concerns from his friends. The last one message made him feel colder. It was from Mandy.

"I'm sorry Toby. I heard that you watched the video. I'm terribly sorry..."

He didn't feel her sincerity. It was just a message. She didn't met him personally. After a while, he laughed. He laughed while crying.

He remembered their past. They were happy chatting and talking. They always go home together. They hang out always, and then the video showed up.

He came up with all his realizations, that love wasn't meant to be real. He connected everything, including peace related to love. If love wasn't meant to be real, then peace wasn't meant to be real and therefore wasn't meant to be found.

He then kept thinking of himself that obtaining peace was just a stupid goal for himself until he found out what his true goal was. For him, he intended not to reveal it to others. It was a top secret for him.

All he wanted... WAS peace... and now... he doesn't.

End of chapter 31

Be ready for the next chapter entitled, "The Open Forum".

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