Stuck in the middle.

Chapter 9

The next day I wake up and realized that there is only three more days of camp left. Holy crap. How did time go by so fast. What am I going to do about Jacob, I love him. What so after three days I'm never going to see him again? I can't believe I didn't think about this! I can't let this go any farther. The closer I get to him the more I will miss him when this is all over. I promise myself that I will not get any closer to him. I have to end this. I don't want to put either of us through that. I get ready for the day, then head to breakfast with the girls. All throughout breakfast Jacob tries to catch my eye, but I don't let him. After breakfast I quickly walk out of the cafeteria and head to the cabin. I'm not quick enough, Jacob grabs my arm. I'm about to pull my arm away then I realize in have to get this over with. He pulls me against him and says," Hey beautiful." Then he kisses me softly. I get lost in the kiss and loose my train of thought. Suddenly I regain my senses and remember what I promised myself. I pull away.

"Emily, what's wrong?" he asks.

"I'm sorry. I can't do this," I say.

"Can't do what?" he questions.

"Be with you. In three days we go our separate ways and we will never see each other again. I'm sorry I just can't," I say, tears forming in my eyes.

The tears threaten to spill over so I run towards the cabin. I glance back one more time. He is standing there and he is just watching me go. I know I hurt him, but I did what I had to do.

I spend all of free period crying. Why did I ever think this would work? Oh right. Stuff that perfect doesn't happen in real life. I finally pull myself together and get ready to face everyone at lunch.