Bitter Submission ✓

Chapter Thirty Three

| Thirty-Three |

|Luxinia|

Once I healed up and made sure there was no blood on me, I finally walked out of the bathroom. Jesse had given me the space I needed and I calmed down a bit. Being thrown back into that hellhole scared me. Jesse said he had things to do and that we would be leaving in a few hours to the jet so I should pack what things I want to bring with me. Which wasn't much.

I walked down the hall into Tessa's room telling her what Jesse had told me. The door was partly ajar and I saw Blair standing there, his hands in his pocket. "I understand that. I never meant to hurt Luxinia. This is hard for me to Tessa. I never knew that there was a choice that we had the option of being free. Forgive me for having a hard time adjusting."

Tessa sighed. "You never knew that there was a choice that succubi could be free. Luxinia is a strong woman, but not everyone is that strong." She was zipping up a suitcase. I guess she already knew we were departing soon.

Why was Blair in her room? I didn't even know they were that close. I frowned.

"Do you hear him call for you?" Blair asked, his voice sounding different.

"Who Dominick?"

"No, Jamie."

"I'm no longer claimed to Jamie. I am claimed to Dominick. He isn't in my head though. Not like he is in Luxinia's," Tessa explained.

"Can he control her? Like to do things? Like... oh I don't know, attack me," Blair questioned.

"No, she's too strong for him to even try to do that. She limits his power. However, it isn't easy. She has to put up her walls 24/7 so he doesn't control her physically. If I reach out for Dom, I could sense his power, dormant there. I sense the toll it's taking on Lux," Tessa walked over to the window, "And Jamie."

I shook my head and walked down the hallway further. I never understood how Tessa was so strong emotionally. She called me being strong because I always kept my mental blocks on, but the love of her life was literally being tortured and she was still standing. That was amazing. I knew how much love she had for him. I loved their relationship. As cliché as it sounded, they were the perfect couple who understood each other and finished each other's sentences. They were so much fun to be around.

They always asked me why I never dated. They always asked me why I didn't find my own special someone. I couldn't trust anyone. I didn't want to bring a human into my supernatural world. It just wasn't safe. I would want to never openly date an incubus. Tessa was one of the lucky ones. Love shouldn't be in the cards for me.

But now Jesse is in the picture and he complicates things. Do I see myself with him? No, because he wants to dominate me. He wants to own me and not be by my side. I can't be with someone controlling. It just didn't work like that. I was so used to being independent, being my own woman. With Jesse here, it blurs the lines of my independence. Even with normal things as cleaning off the blood. I hated feeling hopeless. I didn't want him to take care of me and expect me to let him claim me. It didn't work that way.

I was on my own for four years. Sure Jamie was my 'master', but he never used his power on me at all. He wasn't like that.

I walked into my room and grabbed my bag that was mostly packed already. I didn't have much, only the clothes that the Sanctuary had provided. I wasn't a materialistic person, nor did I hold any sentimental things close to me. I was a quick and go type of person, never staying in one place for too long. That's why I had a job at the head of an editing company. I could up and go with others taking in my place. I hope Kimi was doing that.