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"Dammit, I forgot about Diego." I whine, lifting my head from Jess's lap.

"He won't go away until you answer the door." Jess says, pushing me up.

"But I don't want to deal with it, I was acting like a brat." I whine, very slowly walking to the door, prolonging this moment.

"Melissa you better answer this fucking door!" I hear Diego's voice yell, followed by some more pounds on the door. I sigh, I know I didn't really have a choice.

"Bitch open that door before he breaks it." Kelsey says, gathering her things, I look over to Jess who is doing the same.

"What are you guys doing?" I exclaim, "You're just going to leave me with him? He is so mad at me right now?" I was scared, not because Diego would hurt me, I knew he would never. But because I feared what my big mouth would say, I'd probably end up pushing him away more.

"Getting our shit to leave, cause you two need to talk. Jess I'll give you a ride, my car is here."

"Okay great." Jess walks over to me, giving me a long hug before leaning towards my ear, "Don't hurt him, he cares a lot about you." She pulls away, pecking my cheek before going to door and opening it.  Diego stood there, beanie on his messy hair.

"Hi Diego." I whisper, as Kelsey and Jess rush out the door, waving and closing it behind them.

"Hi?" He yells, anger filling his voice, "Hi? Really Melissa? You get mad at me over NOTHING, act like a brat and throw attitude at me, and all you're going to say is hi?" With each word, he walks closer to me, until my back hits a wall. Fuck was all I could think, I knew I pissed him off, but I didn't think it was this bad. And instead of focusing on him and apologizing, my ass is thinking about how hot he looks right now. What is wrong with me? I have a boyfriend and I'm over here thinking Diego looks good yelling at me.

"Say something Melissa, I didn't come here to yell at a wall. I came to find out what the fuck is going on with you, cause I didn't do shit. You were throwing attitude at me, for some stupid as shit, that you have to right to be upset about"

"I-" I start to say, unsure of what I should even say.

"I? I what? 'I shouldn't have acted like a complete brat?' Talk Melissa." He says, with less anger and more annoyance, he was standing over me and all I could do was look at his lips.

"You're right, I was acting irrational, and being a brat.  I know, I shouldn't have acted that way, especially because I have no right to be upset about what you, or better who you do. I really can't tell you why, because I don't even know why myself, I just I'm sorry Diego." I rush out, looking up at Diego, snapping myself out of me 'Diego looks so hot mad' moment, and feeling guilt for being shitty towards the one person I've felt completely myself around in a long time.

"Okay, baby. Just you gotta talk to me, not push me away or ignore me." He says pulling me to him, I look up at him in surprise, expecting him to make me grovel some more before forgiving me. I quickly wrap my arms around him, feeling safe and relaxed with him holding me. Diego brushes hair out of my face, looking into my eyes. "Don't move." He whispers, he leans down, I'm not sure if I'm not moving out of shock, because he told me not to, or because I just don't want to. What felt like minutes passed, when I felt his lips on mine, they were soft yet still dominant and a little aggressive.

"Diego" I say, or basically moan, wrapping my arms around his neck, pulling him closer to me, I needed him closer. I feel his teeth bite my bottom lip, and I snap out of my daze. I'm standing here making out with Diego, Diego my best friend, not Neels my boyfriend. I quickly push him off. "No, no, no." I say pacing around my living room, guilt forming in my stomach.

"Baby, baby calm down." Diego says reaching for me. I let him bring me into a hug.

"I can't Diego, we just kissed. You're not my boyfriend, Neels is. Even if him and I aren't okay, I cant just be kissing you. Plus, you're seeing Tana. Oh my god, I'm a terrible human. Oh my god." I feel panic rising in me, Neels is going to hate me, no matter how bad things are with him, he doesn't deserve to be cheated on.

"Shh, love shh." He says rubbing me back, as I shove my face into his chest, wanting to disappear. "I kissed you, it's not your fault. Anyway, that guy doesn't deserve you, you deserve better. And I'm not with Tana, I've told you. She is a fuckbuddy, nothing else, nothing more. I know you saw that picture, but she doesn't mean shit to me."

"Even if he doesn't deserve me, which for the matter, I think it's the other way around, I don't deserve him; he doesn't deserve to be cheated on, no one does. And your whole Tana situation is messy, and I don't want to be involved. Please don't mention that stupid picture." I mumble, stepping away from Diego, to sit on my couch. He quickly follows me, sitting next to me.

"Okay fine, I agree with the last part. But it was one kiss Melissa, you pulled away. Don't let this shit eat at you. And no, you deserve the entire world, the best of everything, he doesn't deserve or appreciate you." he tucks a piece of hair behind my ear, "And look, the Tana situation is messy, but I will drop her, for you, I would. And I told her not to take it or post it, but she wants and lives for the drama, if she didn't have it she'd have no subscribers."

"Well he isn't the one that just cheated, I'm the shitty one, and now I'm going to have to tell him when he gets here, and like I wasn't already stressed out about his visit." I'm close to tears, my life was just one fuck up after another, I'm a mess. "And no Diego, don't. Don't do that for me, if you like having her around keep her around. Me not being a fan of her shouldn't affect your thing with her, okay?"

"What the fuck do you mean when he gets here?" Diego's voice raises slightly, his body stiffening.

"He gets here in two days, so Tuesday? We talked on the phone today, and decided we needed to discuss our relationship, and we felt it would be better face to face." I sigh, knowing Neels put Diego on edge, I was unsure why.

"He better not try and kidnap you again, I can't go three weeks without you by my side." He sighs, adjusting himself so he could lay on my lap. I pull his beanie off, so that I can run my fingers through his hair.

"I'm not leaving your side, Diego."

"Good, you've become my world Melissa." He sighs. With everything going on in my life, I felt completely at ease and relaxed with Diego by my side.