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"Hey E. Talk to Diego please. He won't let me leave and I don't want to be here anymore. We talked, and he won't accept what I believe will be best for us, I need help."  I say calmly and sternly while looking Diego in the eyes. All I wanted to do was go lay in my bed. My heart and head hurt so much. I hand my phone to Diego and he takes it, turning his back to me. I loved this boy and my heart hurt more than anything I have ever felt.

"Dude can you talk some sense into her." I pick at my nails as they talk, only able to hear Diego's side of the conversation.

"She's claiming we are done, but I don't want that, and I know she doesn't either."

"She's the one that wanted to talk and now her ass won't listen to me, I don't want a break, I want her, only her."

"I'm not being a dick, ok I was a little but honestly I am trying to be good for her. Us taking a break is only going to hurt us. I can't deal without having her by my side again"

"I get it, I'm an asshole, I lied but like we aren't together I didn't do shit wrong."

"Fuck man don't yell at me, fine I did do shit wrong and I do know that, I hate that I hurt or am hurting her, but won't we be doing that if we end this?"

"I don't want her to leave because she might not come back."

"Fine. You're right, okay."

"Bye." He turns around, hanging up the phone and handing it back to me. He takes a long look at my face, reaching out to touch it, he traces my features softly before taking a deep breath and letting go.

"Alright baby, I'll walk you out." His face looks defeated and sad, and my heart hurts. I know I need to leave now, my composure will crack soon, and I will cave. This is what was best, I keep repeating to myself, the look on his face and the pain in my heart told me otherwise but we were on a path to self-destruction and we couldn't go that way.

"You don't have to Diego." I mutter softly, not wanting him to feel like he has to.

"I want to." He gives me a sad smile, extending his hand to me so I could stand. I take it, letting him pull me up. His grip is tight, and he doesn't let go as I gather my things and walk through out his house to my car. The entire walk from his house to my car was extremely quiet, but not awkward, sadder, and heartbreaking. I was going to miss Diego's presence, but I knew when I said goodbye tonight, that it would only be goodbye for a while. We both need a break and rebuild ourselves and someday him and I could work out. When we reach my car, my heart clenches.

"Thank you for walking me Diego." I say, looking down at my feet, my anger long gone, all I really felt was hurt.

"Baby, I know what you want, but I need you to know that it isn't what I want. I am going to show you how much I love you by giving you what you want. So, I am going to let you do what you want Melissa, but know I am your guy. And I'll be here waiting for you, always. I am going to do what you want, I won't be this fuck up boy you're leaving me, I will be the man you need." He moves some hair from my face, placing his forehead on mine. I instinctually pull him close to me as he pulls away, I grip his neck and pull his down to me as I lean up and give him a soft kiss, a goodbye kiss.  It feels to fast, too quick but I know it was a few minutes before we let go.

"Bye Diego." I say against his lips. I pull away, he steps back letting me get into my car. He watches me pull away, and the farther I get, the more my heart hurts.

The End.....for now