just friends

lied?

       

Real Life

"Hey Diego, where are you?" I called as I walked through Diego's door. My heart still felt like it was going to jump out of my chest, breathe Mel all you have to do is talk.

"In here baby!" I hear his voice call from his room. I smile at the sound of his voice, but it quickly disappears at the thought of not hearing it for a while. I make my way to his room, my heart accelerating at each step, my anxiety rising. Relax Melissa, it is just Diego, just Diego.

"What are you up to?" I ask as I enter his room, seeing him lying on his bed, movie playing on his tv.

"Just watching a movie, mamas. Come here." He motions for me to come lay with him a silly smile on his face, oh how it made my heart flutter in the best way. I put down my bag, slipped off my shoes, climb onto his bed and crawl over to him. "I missed you Mel." He mumbles as he embraces me, talking into my hair.

"I missed you too Diego." I mumble, letting myself be in his arms, in the back of my head thinking this could be the last time for a while. No Melissa stop, he might be honest with you, he might not lie.

"You know you had me stressed out earlier." He nervously laughs, playing with my hair. "What did you want to talk about sweet girl?"

"Oh," Panic rises in me again, I knew I need answers from Diego, there was no way out of our talk, and I knew we needed to have it, I just wanted more time. Do not chicken out Melissa. I take a deep breathe before answering him. "Sorry for stressing you out, we need to talk about some things." I trail off, unsure of how to answer, I sit up to get a better look of his face.

"Okay, what things?" He turns to face me, continuing to play with my hair.

"Well, to be blunt, I know you lied." I avoid eye contact with Diego. I feel his body stiffen and his hand falter from my hair.

"Lied?" There's a crack in his voice, "Lied about what?"

"Diego," I say in a hardened voice, "Please do not lie to me again, I am not an idiot and by the look on your face, I know you know what I'm talking about." I pull away from him. Be strong, I think to myself, I needed to be strong.

"Melissa, look, baby I didn't mean to lie, I just don't get any work done with you, you're just a beautiful distraction." He tries to convince me with a cocky smile thinking that this was the only lie I knew about. I'm more than slightly annoyed that he doesn't seem to want to mention that he lied about Ethan and the girls., the fucking girls.

"Okay and?" I raise my brow at him, waiting for him to fess up. I knew the second he tried to get around the subject that he had made the decision for me, as much as I loved him we wouldn't be able to work if he felt he could lie without consequences, love can only overcome so much.

"And?" His voice cracked, knowing he had been caught, for which offense I'm not sure. But by the worried look on his face he knew that he wasn't going to get out of it easily.

"I'm going to wait for you to figure this shit out." I say, my voice harsh. I sit up away from him, crossing my arms and giving him a glare.

"Babe, look I'm sorry for being such a piece of shit. I know I need to appreciate you more, treat you like the queen you are. You're an angel baby and I'm sorry for doing all this shit to you, it won't happen again baby." My irritation flared, it sounded like a rehearsed reused excuse for an apology, and he didn't even say what he did and why he wouldn't do this shit again. I thought I was going to be leaving his house heartbroken but now I was going to be leaving heartbroken and pissed since this boy seemed to think he was dealing with an idiot.

"Are you fucking shitting me Diego?" I practically growl. His eyes widen, surprised I didn't just accept his apology. Probably more surprised by the aggression and anger in my voice, and to be honest I was surprised too. All I wanted from him was the truth and if her couldn't give me that, there was zero chance for us.

"What? What did I do?" He asks, reaching out for me, I pull away from him. Confusion laced his voice and covered his face, and I knew anger was in my voice and covered my face.

"You're just going to give me some shitty apology that you've probably shitted out to hundreds of girls. And you're not even going to say the things you did? Do you even know? Like fuck you're apologizing and saying you won't do something again when you don't even know what that something is? I wanted to come here and talk this shit out, but if you just want to continue to lie and play my ass, fuck you. I am not one of your hoes Diego, I won't fall for everything you say, and I will not fall at your feet, I don't want to live my life without you but don't think that I won't if need be." I'm so annoyed with Diego at this point, I want to throttle him but unfortunately, I know that won't help me.

"Melissa, baby, I'm so sorry." He stutters out, frantically looking to me, reaching out. I scramble off the bed, not wanting to be near him right now.

"For what Diego? What are you fucking sorry for?" I raise my voice, annoyed with Diego.

"I don't know Mel, tell me what I did." He scrambles off the bed, moving towards me. I take a deep breathe, knowing that when I exposed him there was no way back, everything would be out in the open and we couldn't just shove it back in the box.