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kick my ass

Real Life

"Kelsey, are you sure this is a good idea?" I was nervous, I know Ethan would always be there for me, but with everything that has happened I was nervous.

"Breathe Melissa, breathe." She looks me in the eyes, trying to help me relax. "He loves you, you're his best friend. Nothing you do, which you didn't do anything, would ever change how much he cares." I nod, hearing her but not really listening. "Breathe Melissa!"

"Fuck, fuck. Okay yeah, I'm breathing. I am." I nod my head, trying to relax myself. "Are you sure he doesn't hate me? I would hate me. I was immature as fuck, and bratty and I don't know!" I throw my arms up, frustrated with my situation. I plop myself down on the couch, really wanting to hide in my bed instead of see Ethan, not because I didn't want to fix things, but more because I feared how this could go. My head pops up when I hear a knock at the door.

"Okay that's Ethan, I'm going to go. You two will be fine, I promise." I nod my head again. She pecks my head, grabbing her items and heading to the door.

"Okay, you're right, it's just Ethan." I take a deep breathe, holding it as she opens the door.

"Hey Kels." Ethan walks through the door, greeting Kelsey with a quick kiss.

"Hi, bye baby." Kelsey says, pushing him through the door and closing it behind her.

"Hi Melissa." Ethan says in a shaky voice, standing next to the door.

"Hi," I give him a small smile, patting a spot on the couch rather than standing by the door like I had cooties. He quickly walks over, sitting close to me.

"Can I hug you, Mel? Please?" He asks, cautiously.

"Of course, E." I say, quickly leaning over to give him a huge hug. His arms wrap around me, we stay that way for a few minutes. "Ethan, I missed you so much."

"Oh munchkin, I've missed you more than anything." He whispers into my head. "Please don't ignore me that for that long again, one day I can deal. But this. No." He squeezes me to him, leaning back onto the couch pulling me with him.

"Okay, please don't be an ass again. I need you, I always need you by my side. But to be fair you ignored me first."

"I know, I need you too. You are irreplaceable. I could probably lose all my friends and I'd be okay, but if I really lost you I don't know what I would do without you. And I know I did it first and all but we all know I'm an idiot." We stayed holding each other, cuddled on the couch. My world felt at peace now that I had Ethan back, he hadn't been a huge part of my world for that long but ever since we met, he was a huge fixture in my life. Our friendship meant the world to me, sure I had other friends, but Ethan had become like a brother to me.

"Okay, we have to stop being mushy, yes you're the most important boy in my life beside my brother and dad but I need to know what's going on in your life. Details, details Mr." I pull away from our embrace to face him.

"You're right, but those are the only boys that can go before me, no one else. And nothing much, I've been with Kelsey almost 24/7. And you know I was crazy about her-" My body goes rigid at his wording.

"WAS? Ethan what the fuck do you mean WAS?" I question loudly, ready to shake him, at the same time ready to strangle him.

"Fuck I don't know. Like you know, if anyone knows its you, I was up her ass in love. But I think, I don't know maybe it was the idea of her? Or maybe the chase?" He groans in frustration, obviously upset with the situation.

"Oh Ethan, talk. Talk to me about it sweetheart. How long has this been happening?" I ask, pulling him to me. I sit up, letting him put his head in my lap, playing with his hair.

"I don't know. The first couple weeks were great, and then for me at least it just stopped being so great. I stopped seeing all the idealistic qualities about her. I really think I fell in love with the idea of her. And now that I'm with her, I just don't feel the same I think." He sighs in frustration, I play with his long hairs.

"Oh Ethan, I'm sorry that you've been feeling like this. But why haven't you said anything? You can't keep these things in or lead Kelsey on."

"I know, but we weren't talking, who was I going to talk to? Diego? He'd tell me to smoke a blunt and get over it, Kelsey? That would hurt her. I just can't think straight, like I finally get the girl and now I don't want her. Who the fuck does that."

"True, I really am the one worth talking to anyways. And you can't help your feelings, no one can blame you for how you feel. Look I love you, and I will always support you 100%." I lean down and peck his forehead wanting to give him some support.

"God, never again. You really are my therapist." He whines.

"Facts. But look you MUST tell Kelsey. If you care about her at all, even just platonically, she deserves to know."

"Fuck, you tell her for me." He continues to whine.

"Bitch, no. You tell her, or I will kick your ass." I roll my eyes, Ethan was a softy. A complete and total softy he could never hurt anyone, not maliciously or accidentally. If it was an accident he would have a complete guilt trip.

"Okay kick my ass. I'm too chicken. Complete and total chicken."

"Honestly Ethan, I love you but get your shit together." I really wanted to smack him on the head for being so dense.

"Okay hoe, get your shit together than come yell at me." He playfully smacks my leg.

"We're both a fucking mess huh?" I sigh in frustration, thinking about all my issues.

"We can be a mess together. Two messy best friends sticking together." He laughs, pulling me back down to cuddle.