just friends

spill

       

Real Life

"What are you guys doing?" I turn to see a wide-eyed Kelsey.

"Nothing, just talking." I mumble, standing up away from Diego.

"Uh, okay. I came to check on you because you were taking a bit."

"We'll be right out, just talking shit through okay Kels?" Diego says, grabbing my hand to keep me from walking away. Kelsey turns to me, asking with her face if that was okay, I nod, and she turns away, heading back to our group.

"What now Diego?" I sigh, wanting to get away from him.

"I just want to make sure you're okay? I'm sorry, you told me to behave and I didn't." He looks down at his feet, avoiding eye contact.

"You promised Diego." I run my hands over my face, the stress and guilt eating at me.

"I know, I know. I was going to, and then I thought about him and you, and I snapped or something. You're my girl, even if you're not. I know it doesn't make sense, but it somehow does."

"Diego," I struggled to think of what to say, I couldn't think around him, at least not right now with my emotions all over the place. "I don't know what to say, I'm confused and can't think straight, give me time to figure out myself."

"Fuck, fuck. Okay fine. Take your time." He sighs, "Let's go before whiteboy comes to check on you."

"Yeah, you're right." I give his hand a squeeze and lead him back to the table, I don't think about our hand holding because it has become such a habit for me when I was around Diego. I realize my mistake when I see the glare coming from Neels, I quickly let go of Diego's hand, which only added another glare, this time from Diego. "Sorry, we just got to talking. Are we still going to club tonight?" I ask remembering the plans Alissa and Neels had begun to plan before dinner.

"Um yes! We all need a night out, actually more like we all deserve one!" Alissa cheers, Kelsey, and Jess both quickly agree.

"Which club?" Diego asks, wrapping his arm around Yuleema, which gave me a funny feeling in my stomach, I had to actively keep myself from glaring at her and Diego.

"Peppermint sound okay?" Ethan mentions. Kelsey nods her head like a bobble head, that was her favorite place to go, I roll my eyes knowing Ethan only picked this because Kelsey.

"Good with me." I say leaning my head onto Neels shoulder. He stays tense with me, yet still pulls me into him.

"I'm down, I don't want to stay long though babe, I've missed you." He says, kissing me head.

"OOOOH, Neels is trying to get laid." Alissa shouts, loud enough for tables around us to hear. I feel blush flush my entire face, and Neels chest rumble with a deep chuckle.

"Well everyone is done eating yeah? Lets go dance!" Jess squeals excitedly.

"Okay so spill." Jess says as we trail behind our group.

"Spill what?" I ask, knowing she meant my complete and utter awkwardness and shift in mood since Diego arrived at dinner, and the whole fiasco with him.

"Sweet, sweet girl, if you think you hide Diego problems from me, you're very wrong." She smiles at me, linking our arms. "I won't push you tell me, but look I adore you and am so happy we have become close. I'm okay with you and Diego if that's something you guys want, he's been more like my best friend this last year than partner. And I can see the way he looks at you, I know he might not like act like it, or do stupid shit like Tana or this Yuleema girl, but he cares I promise."

"Isn't this weird though? Like you want to help me out with your ex-boyfriend? This should feel weird." I whine, it didn't feel weird, talking with Jess was so easy for me, no matter the weird situation we were in, it felt completely right to have be a part of my life, a close friend to me.  I see our friends ahead of us, at door waiting for us. "Look Jess, tomorrow. I want to talk to you about everything tomorrow, right now, I want to- no I need to forget." I say, giving her a hopeful smile that she will drop this until tomorrow.

"Okay, tomorrow though." She gives me her bright smile, pulling me to the door.