Adventures of Captainnamerika

Chapter Nineteen

Sometimes, I just wish my brain has a video recorder installed inside. So that when I have this really cool daydream, I can just record it so I can replay and watch it all over and remind myself to make my dreams come true.

Then again, I have to remind myself that "Hey, you'll get there." 👍 Just work hard everytime, stay inspired, motivated, lovable and humble.

I have a lot of wishes. And I would like all of them to come true before my last breath. They say that, if you're afraid of your dreams, you're not dreaming big enough.

So I keep asking myself, "Am I dreaming big enough?"

No matter how much I try, the negative things that I've put in the past will always come back around behind my back and bite me hard in the ass.

It's a gloomy day for me and I wouldn't bother playing the time machine all over again to narrate it to all of you by detail. (I swear any minute now, I can throw my iPhone right on my dad's face!)

But to tell you a shocking fact, depression is the number one cause of being ill. Even the start of cancer. Maybe that's one of God's greatest tricks.

Although according to legends of Tasu Weh and Fiu Weh; the only and the most powerful people in the world, Tasu Weh grabbed some mud and molded beautiful creatures like them and leaned it

So to make things clear, we people are fragile. We easily get sick and die. But I beg to differ.

God gave us the greatest gift of all: LIFE. It's up to us to lead to a happy path or to the land of depression. Of course I would choose my happy place.

After the whole summer, I've decided to drop by to the only place where someone who loves me and understands me. Not even my family and friends can feel my kind of pain. The church. Praying is just the pot of gold from the endless rainbow. That is, you don't have to try so hard.

Even though I feel so much better now, the lightning strikes back (literally and metaphorically) Even writing this, the thunder keeps on bothering me. Trying to frighten me, threatened me and most of all, put me down.

I've realized, through my deep, dark, depressing days back then, why am I still here? Why didn't I get sick? Or even worse, why didn't I get cancer?

Because there's something in me stronger than that. I can redeem myself and just look up and see the sun rather to look down and see the mud.

If I get mad or depressed and all that bad vibes, I would just keep myself busy and forget all about it until I see a real smile plastered on my face.

A 10-minute walk, a cuddle with my pup (did you know that your man's best friend senses your sadness and will always try to cheer you up?), read a good book, talk to someone, take a selfie, cook a simple dish, listen to a good joke or even write something.

The simplest things can make me happy.

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Just a thought.

It's the last weekend of summer. And it's HELLO to college life.

I'm trying to not be too excited because I don't want to expect too much but hey, I just went by my building and it was newly painted. So I guess they'll be welcoming me with open arms.

And as always, it's a good time to have a good set of goals. This time, it's happening for reals!

P.S. I want to learn new things which will bring meaning to my life. Maybe an inspiring song, an interesting set of vocabulary words, a motivational group. I don't know. High school life wasn't really the best four years of my life as they say it was. (Heck, my social life was in the classroom. Just me and my lunchbox.) Maybe college life is my calling.

Mental note for College 101: Stay alert, walk faster, travel in new directions, stand up straight, walk with confidence and speak freaking English!

You'll survive.

Till the next odyssey!

-Captainnamerika 😘