I wish that I could say that you had no idea when I started taking those pills again, it'd make things easier somehow. But I can't because then I would be lying to myself and we both know I do that far too much.
You knew the day I started, didn't you, Tat? You've always known me better than I know myself. I swear it was like you could read my mind. Is that why you started getting more and more frustrated with me? Because you knew I wasn't acting like myself not because I had some drastic personality change, but instead because I was snorting things just for the hell of it?
Truth: When I broke up with you for the first time, it wasn't because I had gotten sick of you. It wasn't because feeling your body on mine had lost its appeal. It was because I was scared of what I was doing to myself. I was scared of how I was slowly killing myself and I knew that in the process I was destroying you as well.
And I loved you too much to keep doing that to you. So I left you in hopes that you would move on and fall in love with someone worth your time.
But you were mine and I didn't want anyone else to have you. Because lying in bed with you was heaven and I loved the way your body fit perfectly against mine.
Aidan
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