What Would It Take For You To Change?

Chapter 1

Stay Away From My Friends

7:00am

My alarm goes off with the sound of Bulletproof Love breaking the silence of day. It's a Monday. Great. As I sit up in bed singing along to my phone I think that maybe this week at school won't be that bad. I laugh at that thought and think, when was the last time I had a good week at school? A good day even!?

"JENNA ARE YOU AWAKE?" my mom yells from downstairs.

"Yeah," I answer quiet enough for her to hear.

I get out of bed and wander into the bathroom, stripping away my clothes to get in the shower, I can't help but stare at my disgusting body. The hot water burns my back, I start my countdown before turning around and letting the water touch my fresh cuts...'3,2,1' I turn around trying not to cry out in pain. I focus all my attention to the music playing in the background 'so baby stay away from my friends, because I need them to carry me when it's over, I'll count back from 10 and you can listen to glass hearts shattering..' Pierce the Veil could make anything better. I loved the boys so much, Vic, Tony, Mike, and Jaime. I smiled at the fact that they were coming to town soon, my town! This concert was the only thing I had to look forward to. Only 3 more days!!!!!

As I realised that I had to get to school; I hopped out of the shower, dried off, threw on my black leggings and Pierce the Veil tank. As I looked over my face I knew I couldn't go to school without makeup so I just put on some heavy black eyeliner and cover-up...lots of it. As for my hair I left it down and straightened, with my bangs covering most of my left eye.

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11:00am

I had barely made it through my morning classes: English and Spanish. Both classes were with mostly the same people, who as you could guess it, HATE ME. It all starts with this one girl Tia who thinks she's the shit. I walked into class and immediately she coughs*freak* and the rest of her little gang laughs and joins in. They're all girls except for Tia's boyfriend Ben. They team up together to make my like a living hell. During English we were reading so they couldn't be as vocal to me as normal, but then we had Spanish. The teacher decided to leave half way through the class to do something and that just gave them the perfect opportunity.

"Hey freak, you look tired, too busy cutting yourself last night? Maybe you should lift up your shirt and let us see. Tia said she saw your stomach in gym last week." Ben laughed. I was speechless, no one knew.

"Oh, no reply?" Tia smirked, "guess it's true then."

The rest of their little gang joined in making fun of me and I couldn't take it anymore, so I got up and ran. I took my books and bolted to the nearest coffee shop in tears. I went straight to the restroom to try and calm down. My mind was racing 1000 miles a minute and I started to panic. How did Tia see? I always changed in a stall during gym. Oh god who are they going to tell? Everyone they are going to tell EVERYONE!

I sat down on the floor shaking when I heard the blade in my purse calling my name. I really didn't want to do this here, but I think I have too. I pulled out my friend and stared at him before lifting my shirt to see my already covered stomach. I closed my eyes and made the first cut, then another, and another. By the time I felt calm and opened my eyes there were 20 cuts leaking blood down my stomach. I stopped the bleeding, or so I thought, and placed my blade back in my purse. I rinsed my face of the makeup streaks on me from crying.

Once I left the bathroom I decided I wanted a hot chocolate. I deserved one, I thought to myself. I got in line and I was behind 4 other men, but it seemed they were all together. I was lost in my thoughts looking at the floor when I felt a tap on my shoulder and someone saying "and whatever this young lady is having too"

I was in shock; no man has ever bothered to be kind to me. I mumbled something along the lines of "I'm just having a hot chocolate, it's okay I can pay for myself" I didn't bother to look at the men talking to me. My voice was crackly and if I had looked at them they would've realised I had just been crying.

"She'll have a hot chocolate please," a voice said to the lady behind the counter.

"Name?" the lady asked kindly directing her question at me.

"Jenna," I said finally looking at the men buying me a drink.

My mouth dropped when I realized who it was...Vic, Mike, Tony and Jaime...My heroes were standing beside me buying me hot chocolate.