What Would It Take For You To Change?

The Boy Who Could Fly

Chapter 23: The Boy Who Could Fly

~Jenna's POV~

The next few days were nearly all the same, uneventful. The boys played their shows and stuff but other than performing we did next to nothing. Things between me and Tony were really awkward though. I don't think we've spoken more than a few sentences to each other for days.

Over the past week I've been feeling really bad about lying to Vic. He keeps telling me how proud he is that I'm trying. But I think that he's starting to catch on because I'm less than 110lbs now and even though he sees me eat my body is thinner. I'm almost sure that he knows I've been purging because after meals and food whenever I excuse myself to the washroom he gives me such a sad look.

I've been running a lot too lately, mostly to burn off the calories of the meals that I can't dispose of.

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It's a Saturday morning around 6 am. We are currently in Chicago and we will be here for a few days because the guys have a break.

I snuck out of bed like I normally do and put on my exercise clothes. I walked to the front of the bus and was about to leave but I heard Tony call out for me.

"Jenna? Is that you?" He asked from his bunk.

"Yeah it's me, but shhh people are sleeping." I harshly whispered at him knowing that if Mike were to be woken this early we would never hear the end of it.

"Oh..sorry" He whispered getting out of bed, "I was wondering if I could come out with you this morning.

"Oh, yeah I guess if you're up for it." Tony and I still haven't really talked since he kissed me. I just hope that the run makes him too out-of-breath to say much.

He got dressed quickly while I waited for him outside. When Tony came out he asked me if I was all good and I told him yes. It was a lie though, lately when I go for runs I've been getting really dizzy and lightheaded, and we haven't even left yet and I'm already feeling bad.

He smiled at me and said "lead the way" gesturing to the quiet city around us.

We took off down a road which I knew lead to a trailed park. Tony seemed to be doing really well considering I don't think he exercises much. We ran around for about half an hour, and I had managed to avoid anything other than small talk.

We decided that we should probably go back. I was glad, because I feel so dizzy right now. Like more dizzy that ever before. I think if we just jogged for a bit it wouldn't be so bad and I could make it back to the bus without Tony getting mad at me for running while feeling like shit. I started to slow down but Tony didn't get the hint that I was tired so I guess I have to break the silence...

"Hey Tone, mind if we slo-"

~Tony's POV~

The run was going nice so far, accept Jenna got really awkward whenever I tried to ask her something that was related to what happened when I kissed her. I really just wanted to apologize and have her believe how sorry I am but I also want to tell her that I think she is perfect in every way and I wish she was mine.

We were on our way back and I was still running hard when I noticed Jenna was falling behind. She started to speak. "Hey Tone," I turned around, running backwards to face her as she spoke, "mind if we slo-"

"JENNA!" I yelled as I watched her fall to the ground. I rushed to her side and rolled her onto her back still continually calling her name, but she wasn't responding. Her eyes were closed and she didn't make a sound. "Jenna please open your eyes" I pleaded with her. I put my ear to her mouth and thank god she was still breathing, even if her breaths we shallow and thin.