What Would It Take For You To Change?

Darling You'll Be Okay

Chapter 5: Darling You'll Be Okay

~Jenna's POV~

When the door bell rang I suddenly got brought back into reality. I was lying on my bed and Vic was on top of me...and we kissed. I didn't want this moment to end but the pizza guy was here. Maybe it was for the best he showed up. Who knows what might have happened.

Vic rolled off of me and offered to go get the pizza but I jumped out of bed before he could finish asking. I needed a minute to think.

I grabbed the money from the counter and paid for the pizza. Mmmmm it smelt sooo good. But I must only have one piece. There are way too many calories in pizza. I was reaching for the plates in the cupboard when I felt arms snake around my waist. Vic put his head in my hair and breathed in, "You smell good" he said all sexy into my neck.

"Are you sure you don't smell the pizza?" I laughed. Vic took the plates out of my hands and went to put them on the table. I grabbed us some drinks and joined him at the table. It was so awkward sitting there, I had no idea of what to say. What do people say in this situation? Hey ummm thanks for the kiss? I was still so confused as to what had just happened no more than 10minutes ago in my room. The questions were piling up in my mind and I ended up just blurting out "What just happened, in my room I mean?"

~Vic's POV~

I was at a loss for words when Jenna asked me what had just happened. I didn't know how to tell her. How do you tell someone whom you've only known for half a day that you think you're falling in love with them? My nerves are getting the best of me, and when that happens I seem to resort to bad humor, "I believe that people these days call it a kiss.." I was choking on my words. Jenna's face blushed as I said it, she was trying to hold in her laughter, you could tell.

Her face became more serious, "that's not what I meant" she said in a whisper.

"I know, I'm sorry, It's just...umm..well...I was there, and you were there and in that moment everything seemed so perfect and still, and well when I looked into your eyes my heart melted into the shape of you...and ummm I think I'm falling for you" That last part came out so silently I was praying she didn't hear me. I couldn't look at her face to see her reaction. I was staring at my pizza when Jenna said "I liked it....I like....you" her voice was so shaky, see seemed terrified at the sound of her own words.

After what Jenna said neither of us spoke, we just sat there in comfortable silence eating our pizza. Well more like I was eating pizza and she was just nibbling at a slice. She was so hungry before, I feel bad for making her lose her appetite.

I had just about gotten the nerve to say something when the phone rang. Jenna went to pick it up, it was her mom. After the phone call Jenna sat back down and told me that she wasn't coming home tonight. She explained that the meeting her mom had was off the Island and she didn't want to travel back today. As I looked at the clock I understood why, it was already 6. Shit the boys probably wonder where I am.

"Do you want to stay the night?" Jenna asked, seeming scared.

"I would love too, just let me call Mike and tell him where I am." I excused myself from the table and walked into the living room, sat on the couch and called Mike.

"Hey bro! What's going on? Where are you?" Mike sounded drunk. He probably never stopped drinking since this afternoon.

"I'm at Jenna's and I think I'm going to stay the night, is that cool with you?"

"Totally! Haha don't forget to use protection" he joked, "I'll tell Turtle and Jamie"

"It's not like that, I'm just staying over, don't go spreading rumors!" I yelled into the phone in frustration. Why would I get upset over a comment like that? Mike says those things all the time. Maybe it was because I actually liked Jenna, I don't want to screw things up.

When I hung up the phone, I was joined on the couch by Jenna. I told her I was all good to stay over, her smile got so big I swear she could reach her ears with her mouth. We went to clean up the kitchen, Jenna was putting the pizza and drinks away and I cleared the plates. Her plate still had half a slice of pizza on it. "Were you not as hungry as you thought?" I asked motioning to the pizza left on her plate. "I guess not" she giggled, but it wasn't sincere, it was a nervous giggle, like when someone is lying. I shrugged it off and decided that it wasn't a good time for confrontations, and plus what would I even say.

~Jenna's POV~

I was getting tired of being in the kitchen and around all the food so I asked Vic if he wanted to go and finish the movie, seeming as we didn't get very far. He accepted and we made our way to my bed. Only this time, I changed into my pj's and Vic took off his shirt. We both got under the covers and instead of being far apart Vic pulled me in close and rested his arm on my shoulder, giving me space to put my head on his chest.

We made it through the movie, but I was getting pretty tired. I know it was early, especially for a band member who is used to partying into the early hours of the day, but I was going to fall asleep if we didn't do something else.

Vic sensed my mood. "I want to know you better, you know so much about me, yet I know nothing of you."

"Okay, what do you want to know?" I asked hoping he wouldn't want too much personal stuff.

"Favourite colour?"

"Red"

"Favourite animal?"

"Dinosaur, even if they aren't alive, but if you won't count that then fish."

"Favourite season?"

"Winter"

"Birthday?"

"10 days, aka May 6th"

"OOOOOOOOOOO Are you gonna have a party!?"

"No, it's always just been me and my mom."

"Oh, well maybe this year will be different."

"Tell me about your family" Vic said smiling.

"Well it's just me and my mom now, she's pretty cool I guess, you know as far as being a cool parent goes. My dad left a few years ago, after my sister died. He always blamed himself, but it wasn't his fault."

"I'm so sorry, I didn't know."

"It's okay, you couldn't have known because my mom hid all the pictures away because she didn't want me feeling sad."

~Vic's POV~

Jenna put on such a brave face as she talked about her family. She continued to tell me about her sister because she saw how curious I was. It turns out her sister is three years older, and ended up killing herself 4 years ago. Jenna said that Cassidy(her sister) had been raped and got pregnant, her father blamed her for it happening and she grew depressed as the baby started growing and ended up ODing on pain killers. Jenna was 13 when it had happened.

I could feel Jenna slipping away to her thoughts as she stopped speaking, so I wrapped my arms around her and held her close. I didn't want her to feel alone anymore. She is too young to feel this sad.

"Can I tell you a secret?" Jenna asked.

"Anything"

"Earlier on the beach, when you asked about school, I really didn't know what to say, but I think I'm ready to tell you."She shifted her position so that she was looking into my eyes. "I, umm.. I didn't want to go back because..because there are some really mean people there, who are trying to make my life hell...and I just couldn't take it anymore...that's why I was at the coffee shop, I ran there from school to try and get away." Tears were streaming down her face at this point. Jenna just looked so sad, beyond broken, at this moment she looked like she had given up.

I took her crying face into my hands, tilted her chin up, looked deep into those beautiful green eyes, and kissed her. This kiss was different though, it was so passionate. After a minute our lips separated and I put my forehead on hers and whispered "I will stand by you and stick with you for whatever you need, Darling you'll be okay."