What Would It Take For You To Change?

I Don't Care If You're Contagious

Chapter 24: I Don't Care If You're Contagious

~Jenna's POV~

When I heard the door open I turned my head to see Vic and the boys walk in.

"Jenna, I'm so glad you're awake, you really scared me out there" Tony was first to speak. He came up to me and gave me an awkward hug. I couldn't really do anything in this situation since my hands were clasped to the bed. I had told the doctor that I didn't want that stupid sugar water pumping into me and he refused to take it out.

Mike and Jaime came to me next, both giving me a hug and kiss on the head. Dr. King was busy checking my IV bags and some other things. "I'm going to leave you guys with Jenna for a bit while I do her paperwork," he was speaking to the guys, talking about me like I wasn't there, "I could un-restrain her if you promise that at least one of you will be in here until I come back"

I looked to Vic, trying to get his attention to tell the doctor that he could un-clasp me, but Vic hasn't looked at me since he walked in here or spoken, his eyes have been glued to the floor. Jaime must have sensed my silent pleading because he told the doctor that someone would always be by my side.

Once the doctor left, the room fell into an uncomfortable silence. I wanted to speak but when I opened my mouth I realised I had no idea what to say. Mike, Tony and Jaime kept exchanging glances between each other then Vic, whom still hasn't budged since he came in here.

"Jenna, beautiful, we are going to the cafe to find some breakfast, would you like anything?" Jaime asked me.

"No thank you" I rejected the food, even though my lack of food is what brought me here in the first place. When I had answered Jaime, Vic's eyes shot up to mine. He looked so angry at me.

"Oh, okay we will be back soon" Jaime spoke softly, giving me an apologetic look, with a small smile. He, Mike and Tony left, leaving me and Vic alone.

When my eyes left the door and turned back to Vic, he was still glaring at me. I felt horrible. Vic doesn't deserve someone like me, he should just break up with me now and let me die.

"I'm sorry" I managed to choke out, but my voice was very brittle.

"Why?" Vic said with a mix of anger and hurt.

"Why am I sorry?" I had to ask him if this is what he meant because he was looking for an answer to his question but I didn't know what he wanted to hear.

"Yes, I want to know why you are sorry, because through my eyes I feel like you aren't sorry, you did this to yourself on purpose! I've been trying to help you through this so you didn't end up in the state you are in now, but you, you lied to me, you manipulated me, and you went behind my back! You did all those things and now you're sorry? Why would you let yourself go this far!" Vic was yelling at me, "Why didn't you come to me? You know how much I love and support you, why Jenna? Why didn't you accept my help? Why..." by the end of his little speech/rant, he was no longer angry, his mad eyes had turned to tears. The composure that he had been holding up came crumbling down. He basically fell into the chair beside my bed. Then he took my hand in his and rest his head on it. Tears were streaming out of his eyes onto me. "I love you so much Jenna, why?"

"she told me this would happen" I muttered under my breath, thinking out loud to myself. I didn't think Vic heard it, but when I had said it his head raised to face mine.

"She? She told you what would happen?" confusion filled his voice.

"If I tell you, will you promise not to call me crazy? Please I swear I'm not crazy." I took a deep breath, trying to prepare myself to tell him about the voice that lives with me in my head.