What Would It Take For You To Change?

Drella

Chapter 22: Drella

~Jenna's POV~

"Please don't tell" Tony whispered.

I mouthed okay to him before running out to meet Vic. It was just one kiss, it meant nothing, and it wasn't my fault...so Vic doesn't need to know right?

"Hey baby, I missed you, and I brought you back a salad from the store." Vic said while pulling me into a hug.

"Awe, thank you and I missed you too." I said trying to mask the panic in my head.

"What did you get up to while we were out?"

"I made a surprise for you! I hope you like it." I told him excitedly.

"Oooo, what is it!?"

"Cover your eyes and I'll take you to see" Vic put his hands over his eyes and I pulled him to our room. I told him to wait in the doorway with his eyes shut as I quickly cleaned up all the scrap paper into a neater pile. "Okay now you can open"

Vic's eyes opened and his face instantly formed into a giant smile, "Wow". Vic just stared at the wall, eyeing from head to toe taking in the mass amount of pictures. "I love it sweetie, it looks wonderful"

"Thanks" Was all I could reply with because I could see Tony watching me from the other end of the bus. Why did he do this to me?

~Tony's POV~

Fuck. I've probably messed up my relationship with Jenna forever now. And if she tells Vic I know he will hate me. She was just so kissable in that moment! I always liked Jenna, since the day we met. But Vic swept her off her feet before I even had a chance. She's just so fragile and special I want to just love her and make all the sadness in her eyes go away. But no Tony, you can't think like that, she's with Vic. Vic is in love with her and she is in love with him. Not you!

Jenna keeps catching me stare at her now, but I can't help it. When she is with Vic I feel the need to just watch and make sure she doesn't tell him. She wouldn't do that though, right?

~Jenna's POV~

The day was passing by too slowly. After I showed Vic the room he made me sit and eat my salad, which I did not purge. Then we all just sat on the couch and watched endless episodes of Sponge Bob because it was on Netflix.

When it came to dinner time we were having snack night. So chips and dip and chicken and some other snacky foods. All of these things have a stupid high calorie content which made me kinda mad because I knew Vic would make me eat to his standards. Vic must have understood what I was thinking because he tried giving me a half-hearted smile and hug when he caught me staring at the nutrition facts. "It will get easier" He whispered into the side of my head then kissed it. As he kissed me he took the food packages from my hands and told me to go sit down and he would deal with it.

I ended up eating around 700calories worth of food and I felt disgusting. I tried to just sit and watch more shows with the guys and ignore the feeling inside my stomach, but I just couldn't bare it any longer.

"I'ss needs to pees" I said like a three year old, while getting off the couch. Everyone just laughed at me while I got up from my fantastic use of grammar.

I quietly purged dinner then brushed my teeth. I know that you're not supposed to brush right after puking but I couldn't go back out there with vomit breath. I washed my face to remove the teary looking eyes I had. I pulled my hair into a messy bun and made my way back out pretending like nothing happened.

When I sat back onto the couch Vic pulled me in close to give me a kiss. "Why'd you brush your teeth?" He asked with a hint of laughter.

I didn't know how to answer so the I just used the first thing to come to mind, "So I could do this..."I gave Vic a nice long kiss, "...all night."

Tony, Jaime and Mike all made gagging noises, but them being grossed out is better than them knowing the truth. Vic just smiled and pulled me in for another kiss, "Well in that case I'm glad you did" He said while letting out a small chuckle.

We were still watching shows but it was starting to get late. The people on the screen were just eating dinner and it was putting me to sleep.

"Oh, this reminds me," he pointed at the dinner table on the tv, "why did you call yourself 'little bean'?"

"Little bean?" Mike laughed, "that had got to be the lamest nickname ever"

"I know it's lame but I don't know, my mom always used to call me things that had to do with beans like, Jenna-Bean, Jellybean, Green bean, Little bean. I just got used to it and was always referred to the little bean in the family pod being the youngest. So there you have it, the story of Little Bean."

"That's adorable!" Jaime laughed.

"Then why are you laughing at me!?" I tried to look offended

"Because it's just too cute" Jaime continued to laugh.

"Whatever" I said sarcastically, "This bean is going to bed." I got off the couch and Vic told me that he would be there soon.

"Night Little Bean" Jaime cooed.

"Peace-out bean sprout!" Mike laughed. I am never going to live down this bean thing.

~&~

Vic came to bed soon after I did. He kept giving me little kisses and telling me how proud he was of me. I love how caring he is but I hate lying to him. I wish I could tell him that I can't get better yet because I need to reach my goal, but he'd never understand that. Hell I don't even understand it. My logic is so stupid, why am I hurting myself when I have a strong man trying to save me?

We cuddled in bed for awhile before I drifted off to sleep.