What Would It Take For You To Change?

Pyjama Party

Chapter 40

~Jenna's POV~

"Vic, can we talk?" I asked him once he had calmed down from his after-show high.

"Sure Sweetie, what's up?" He replied while closing the door to our bedroom. I nervously sat on the edge of the bed and patted the spot next to me for him to sit. "You're not breaking up with me right?" Vic asked skeptically, taking the seat next to me.

"No, no, of course not, well, I hope not..." I took a few deep breaths before continuing. "Um, Vic, I wanted to ask about what's going to happen to us when the tour ends in a few days."

"Oh, right. Well I have been giving it some thought, but to be honest I'm not 100% sure what to do. Like, I love you more than anything and you know that, but you have to go back to school and I have to go home for a few weeks. Like I'm going to hate not seeing you every day, or sleeping with you every night. But I could talk to your mom and see what she thinks about maybe having you come up and live with me and the boys for summer. I really just don't want tour to end so I can stay with you, right here, forever."

I smiled warmly, feeling the tense nervousness leave my body. I leaned more into Vic and put my head on his shoulder whilst joining our hands together. "I love you too, I'm just worried that if I go back to school and you go home that you're going to forget about me" My voice sounded with a lot of sadness and I couldn't help but feel like this would be one of our last night's together.

"Jenna, Sweetie, don't say things like that. I could never forget about you." Vic lifted my chin up with his fingers and smiled lovingly at me, "We will make it work okay? I promise." He spoke softly, before kissing me gently. I am sure going to miss the feeling of his soft lips against mine for the rest of the school year, the way that they move in perfect symmetry with mine.

We kissed for a few moments longer before my thoughts took control of me again, causing me to pull away. When I opened my eyes again a few tears escaped. Vic wiped them away tenderly while looking sadly into my eyes.

"What else is on your mind?" He asked softly

"I'm really scared to go back to school, I don't want to get hurt again" I said trying not to cry.

"Oh, Jenna, come here" Vic said while he moved into a position that he could hug and hold me in. "I can't promise you that it will be okay and that those assholes won't hurt you again, but I do know that you have gotten so much stronger in this past month and I believe that you will be able to face them. You have the strength to make it through I'm sure of it."

"Okay, I'll try"

"That's what I like to hear" He said smiling.

We sat for a few minutes just silently enjoying each other's company. Vic was first to break the silence, "I love you"

"I love you too"

~&~

The next 3 days passed by way too quickly. The boys played their last show of the tour last night and it went amazing, like better than any one yet. There was just so much energy and fun being had.

We were currently on our way back to Victoria. Only a few hours left until I would get to see my mom again. Apparently Vic and she have been very 'texty' lately and she has invited them to all sleep over at my house for the night, so they get a decent sleep before the bus ride back to their home; which will be super awesome because Jaime and I had already picked a few movies to watch and sent a list of food for my mom to pick up, so we could all have a sleep-over party.

Vic and I were in our room collecting my clothes from the various places I had left them and putting them into bags. As I was folding the clothes that I've worn 100's of times I couldn't help but think that I would have to go shopping soon for a whole new wardrobe because things that fit me a few weeks ago are getting tight. I don't actually know how much I weigh, but Vic does, because he has to weigh me daily, but he still tells me I'm beautiful and hasn't made any negative comments about the mass amounts of pounds I must be gaining. He even told me that Dr. King has been very impressed with my recovery thus far. I'm kind of scared for when Vic leaves because that means my mom has to take control of checking my weight and keeping track of my food, but mom and I have never actually talked about my eating problems. She knows all about what happened because Vic called her to tell, but she's always avoided the topic with me.

Just as Vic and I finished finding all my things throughout the bus, the bus turned off telling us that we were here. I ran to the lounge area and saw through the windows my home. I saw our front door open and out walked my mother. I ran off the bus almost body checking a slow moving Turtle, and hug attacked my mom.

"I've missed you so much!" I yelled as I hugged her.

"Oh Sweetie I've missed you too! I'm so glad you're still in one piece" she laughed. "Hey guys!" My mom welcomed the boys as they walked off the bus.

"Hello again Ms. May, how are you?" Tony replied first.

"Oh I'm just jumping with joy that my Little Bean is home, how are you guys?"

"We're great" Jaime jumped in.

"You will all have to tell me all about it, come on in" My mom encouraged.

"I'll be right there," Vic said, "Jenna go start catching up with your mom, I'll bring your stuff in"

"Oh thank you Vicky!!!" I called as I excitedly pulled my mom into the house.

~&~

About two hours later, with my voice sore from so much talking I had finally told my mom all the great parts about my last month. I showed her all of the pictures I took and made her look at all the fun things I had bought and received from all the different places.

She was getting tired and wanted to go to bed, but for me and the boys the party was just getting started. Mom went up to her bed and the rest of us took our snacks and made the way to the basement. We all changed into our onesies and Jaime set up the first movie.

We were watching Cabin in the Woods and I was scared out of my mind. I hate even the least frightening scary movies, so this one was freaking me out. I have probably only seen like five minutes of the movie so far because I've had my head in Vic's chest the whole time; but I've heard everything.

When the movie finally ended we had a board game break and decided to play Risk. I was losing miserably and Mike was dominating. Everyone thought that my horrible abilities to play this game were pretty funny because they were laughing every time I had a turn. I surprisingly lost first but I went out with a bang; my last country was Argentina and right before Jaime and I rolled I put on the song 'Don't Cry For Me Argentina' and when I lost the roll I made it a big scene and sang along to the chorus. Mike ended up winning in his final few battles with Tony taking over the rest of the world.

After our board game fiasco we watched a few Disney movies and had a small dance party before calling it a night. It was a really good night too, there was no sadness, just laughter and smiles. We all slept together side by side on the floor; I was stuck between Jaime and Vic. As I drifted off to sleep I wished that we could stay here in this moment forever because early tomorrow they all are going to leave me and I'm really scared as to how it's going to go.