What Would It Take For You To Change?

Celebrate The Way The Night Hides Scars

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Chapter 9

~Jenna's POV~

I have decided that I don't like taking shots. Mike was pretty drunk and Jaime and Tony weren't too far behind him. Vic and I drank the same amount, only 2 shots, just enough to get a slight buzz. I thought that if the boys got drunk they would forget about the whole me and Vic thing, but it didn't. Jaime kept looking at the photos and threatening to put them on the internet, Tony kept looking at Vic with anger and then at me with sadness in his eyes, and Mike just kept taking shots and making sexual jokes(which were pretty funny to be honest).

I went to the tv and turned on Star Wars, Tony jumped on the couch so fast, telling everyone to shut up so we could watch the movie. We were only about 30minutes in when Mike and Jaime fell asleep. They looked so cute because Jaime had fallen asleep with his head in Mikes lap. Tony was really into the movie and not really paying attention to anything else so I decided that this was the perfect time for me and Vic to slip away...I wanted more kisses.

I pulled Vic back to his room and flopped onto his bed. He crawled over to me getting back into the position where he was on-top of me. "Didn't want to watch the movie?" He said sarcastically.

"I just thought that we could continue where we left off before we were interrupted" I bit my lip looking into his eyes.

Vic was about to say something but he must have decided it wasn't important because he closed the gap in between our faces kissing me hungrily. I continued to kiss him back for awhile but then he started biting at my lip begging for entrance. I allowed it and soon our tongues were colliding, exploring each other's mouths. "You lips are perfect" Vic mumbled against my mouth before kissing me again. Everything about this moment was perfect.

I could tell Vic was getting excited because as we kissed he started grinding his hips against me and well, I could feel his jeans getting tighter. I wanted to feel more of Vic's skin so I started tugging at his shirt. Vic paused the kiss for just a few seconds to pull it over his head and throw it to the floor. As we were kissing I allowed my hands to run all over his chest, back and arms. His skin was so smooth; it felt perfect as my hands traced around it.

"Could we lose your shirt too?"Vic asked so innocently.

I kept kissing him while I thought about it. Yes there were lots of scars and a few open wounds, but it had been 2 days since I cut and most of them were healing. Vic would be okay if he saw right? He wouldn't leave me, I hope.

"Yes, but only if we turn out the lights" I answered him, hoping that the darkness would hide most of the scars.

~Vic's POV~

"Anything for you Sweetie" I said as I quickly got up to turn off the lights. I wonder why she was all of the sudden so self-conscious. I hope she knows she looks perfect to me.

I turned around to walk back to the bed and found that Jenna had moved herself to being under the covers. I wanted to make her feel beautiful enough that she didn't have to hide, there is no reason that she should have to hide.

I went to the side of the bed and lifted up the covers, climbing in I got back on top of Jenna. As I was kissing her I started tugging at her shirt. She allowed me to pull it over her head and throw it to the floor. I leaned down to kiss her again. As we were kissing I felt Jenna pulling the blankets up over top of us. I gave her a questioning look and she answered "It's warmer under the covers, I like being cozy".

I started to grind against her body, loving the new amount of skin exposure. I allowed one of my hands to trace a line down her neck, then her shoulders, chest and stomach, little kisses following my fingers. Jenna was giggling as I was making my way down. She kept saying things like 'you're so cute' 'your lips are perfect' and 'I want morrrreee kisses' when I stopped for a few seconds. I didn't want to stop but as I was touching and kissing her stomach I couldn't help but notice scars all over, and even some fresher cuts. Is this why she was so panicked earlier? I wasn't too sure what to say, or if I should say anything at all. It makes sense why she wanted the lights out and to be under the covers. Oh, I can't stand my beautiful girl being so sad.

I went back up to her lips and kissed her deeply, full of passion. She looked at me, her eyes seemed sad compared to before. Our foreheads we touching and I was gazing at her beautiful face. "I still think you're beautiful" I whispered on her lips, before kissing her again. When I opened my eyes to look at her again there were tears streaming down her face. I tried wiping them away but they just kept falling. "Don't cry Sweetie" I tried to comfort her by pulling her into a hug. Jenna was still crying, and the tears seemed to be falling faster now. She looked me in the eyes and said, "I-I-I'm s-s-orry" before completely losing herself in her tears.

I tried to comfort her to the best of my abilities. I was rubbing her back and tried to sooth her with my words. "There is nothing to be sorry for Sweetie, its okay, you can let it out."

Jenna's crying started to calm down a bit, but the tears were still streaming down her face. I decided to sing to her, 'I laid down, I drank the poison then I passed the fuck out. Now let me tell you 'bout the good life, I have a million different kinds of fun when I'm asleep and in a dream that I'm your only one. Can we create something beautiful and destroy it? Nobody knows I dream about it, this is my imagination. If you come over tonight we can travel through time, we can sleep on the ceiling and creep under black lights. I have a million different girls that hide under my bed, and when I let them out they treat me right. Oh what a waste of a perfectly good, clean wrist.' I was cut off by Jenna kissing me. She had finally stopped crying.

"We don't have to talk about it Sweetheart, not tonight if you don't want to." I made sure I spoke gentle, giving her an option, but she would have to talk soon.

"Could we just cuddle for a while?" Jenna spoke in almost a whisper.

"Of course we can" I replied. I kissed Jenna one more time on the lips before allowing her to lie down. She faced away from me. I snuggled in close to her, wrapping my arms around her body and pulling her in close. I tangled our feet up, then, pulled up the blankets to cover us in a warm cocoon.