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Chapter 7- The Hell?

It's Friday already and right now I was at my locker rushing to get my things in and get the things I needed for class out. Tuesday was weird. Matt came to talk to me in the morning and because we were so normal with each other May was confused. I usually tell her everything and she had no idea how we became friends. I had to lie to her, well Matt did. He told her that we spent hours at the cafe on the Monday. She totally shipped us though. She was pushing me to be with him every goddamn minute, it was too much to handle. Plus, for some reason she and Jason seemed to be getting close. I wanted to ask Matt about it but I still didn't make my decision as yet and with everyone I knew in school shipping us, it didn't really help. This is why I was rushing to get to class so I wouldn't have to talk to him. I've been avoiding him since yesterday.

"May, please hurry" I said frantically with a frown on my face when I reached by her locker and she was still digging.

"Good Morning, girls" A very enthusiastic voice beamed. Jason. That means Matt was close by. Dammit!

"Morning" May blushed while closing her locker. What the hell? Did she just blush? She did not just blush! When May blushes that means she's actually into a guy, like seriously. And that was not often. This was not good. Jason had a mate waiting for him. May would be devastated when that happened. Oh God.

"Good morning" That sweet voice that I was avoiding said.

"Uhh May we should get going. We won't wanna be late!" I said grabbing her arm and pulling her the other direction with me.

"Bye guys!" She squeaked out as I pulled her towards our classroom.

"Okay do you want to tell me now why you're avoiding Matt?" She asked when we took our seats. My head snapped towards her. She realized that?

"You wanna tell me why you were blushing as soon as you heard Jason's voice?" I fired back and her eyes widened. Score Lilly.

"Okay fine. You got me. I like him. He's really sweet. I'm just drawn to him. I feel like we could actually reach somewhere if we're together. It's somehow different with him" Well that's not good. He has a mate for God's sake.

"Now tell me, why are you avoiding Matt?" She interrogated again.

"I'm not avoiding Matt" I stated bluntly trying to busy myself with getting my books out.

"Honey everyone sees you're avoiding him since yesterday. And I'm your best friend so I have the power to make you tell me why" Everyone knows? I guess it would explain the slight pains I've been getting. He's probably thinking I'm rejecting him.

"It's complicated" I told her. Not elaborating.

"What's complicated? He definitely likes you and I thought you liked him too?" Oh if only I could tell her everything I know she would tell me what to do. I have grown to like him in these couple days but I still don't know what to do. I'll have to live at the pack house, what am I going to tell May?

"I don't know" I sighed. Thankfully she dropped the topic after that, probably seeing my defeated face expression.

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Another week passed from that Friday. It was now Saturday evening and it made it almost two weeks now and I didn't tell anybody my decision. I have managed to successfully avoid Matt for the past week but right now I was laying in my bed, staring at the ceiling, frustrated. I felt like I was going to explode. The heavy pain on my chest was gradually disappearing but I didn't pay attention to that.

I was focused on all the anger I had built up inside. Yes, I was angry. I was angry because I was put into this situation to make this decision. I didn't want to do that. I didn't want to be the one to have to make such a decision. I was human. I didn't want to be dragged into a mess like this that changed my whole world and everything I knew. Why was I the one that had to go through this?