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Chapter 13- The Talk

I walked through my front door like no-one was following me, hurried to the kitchen, grabbed a bag of chips and a bottle of water and quickly rushed up the stairs to my room while hearing Matt shout,

"You can't avoid the topic forever Lils!"

Yup, I was running from him. I knew he wanted to have a talk about that kiss and my decision and whatnot but I just wasn't ready. I didn't know. I was thinking about this since the first day and I still couldn't make up my mind.

I quickly closed my door, dropped my chips and water on my bed and sighed. I really needed a shower. I lazily walked to my bathroom and stripped getting into the shower. I didn't realize how tense I was until I felt the pressure melt away with the hot water. It was so relaxing, I wanted to stay in there forever. But I quickly did what I had to and came out, after all my bed would be so much more relaxing and comfortable.

I changed into my pyjamas and threw my hair into a ponytail now ready to enjoy my snack and have a long sleep even if it was just after 5 in the afternoon.

I opened the door to my bedroom instantly getting a whiff of chocolate and pine. My eyes quickly darted around the room looking for him. And there he was sprawled out on MY bed eating MY CHIPS and watching TV. THIS BOY WAS SO FURIOUSLY ANNOYING coming into MY house and owning up my things.

I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself, the smell of chocolate and pine really helped too.

"Didn't I lock the door?" I thought out loud.

"Oh no when I turned the handle it opened" Matt replied normally, popping a chip in his mouth, as if he didn't sense my displeasure.

Deep breath. His intensions may seem innocent right now but I know what he really wanted. He wanted to talk. And talking is what I was trying to avoid right now.

Deep breath. I walked to my bed, grabbed the bag of chips from his hands, made myself comfortable and focused my eyes on SpongeBob on the television.

After a minute of no words being spoken, I could feel Matt's eyes boring a hole on the side of my face. Aggravating was not even a close enough word to describe this boy. I sighed. Was there no way to avoid this conversation? I could probably really burn him to death, at least I know that would work. But that was too much effort.

I turned to face him. Might as well get it over with right?

"Okay what?" I asked, referring to what he wanted to talk about.

"What?" he asked back in the same tone with a smile. Well I could see from now I was going to strangle him at some point during the night.

"What do you want to talk about Matt?" I asked in a serious tone.

"You're ready to talk?" he sounded a bit surprised.

"Might as well get it over with"

"Well" he made himself even more comfortable by propping himself up with an elbow "How about we start with how you have had about three weeks to make a decision about me and you still haven't decided yet." Yup let's speak about the things I'm dreading. Can you see my tears flowing?

I sighed. What else was I supposed to do? I had no idea what to say now.

"Okay you don't have to say anything." Matt continued "I can't say that I understand what you're going through because honestly; I have no clue whatsoever. But usually within a few days mates decided whether they're going to stay together or not. And it's been three weeks with us and I'm kinda uneasy about the whole thing." He finally finished. I nodded my head. I guess I could understand, I was so taken up with my problems that I didn't really think about how he would be feeling about this.