Our crazy life

Chapter 9

I woke up early that morning. I was still feeling groggy from being drunk last night and from not being able to sleep. I rolled over and Keanu was still sleeping. I laid there and watched him sleep, he looked so peaceful and un disturbed. I had a flashback to the day that seemed completely normal. I remember Keanu and I sitting on the porch watching the sun rise drinking our coffee and joking around with each other. I remember him calling me beautiful and holding me close. That's the last time I actually felt safe and truly loved. I started to tear up so I got up and walked into the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and said "I'm a complete mess" I walked over to the shower and turned the water on. I grabbed a towel from the hall closet, turned on the fan and shut the door.

I untie my robe and hop in the shower. I stand underneath the water and let it hit my back. I keep thinking about last night. I couldn't believe I kissed Ryan. I felt like an awful person for doing it behind my husbands back. My mind couldn't decide weather I should tell Keanu or just forget about the whole thing. I knew I would feel guilty every time he would kiss me or when he tells me he loves me knowing I had slept with another man. I hear the bathroom door open and my eyes pop open. It was Keanu. He asks "do you mind if I join you" I told him no I don't mind. Keanu strips and opens up the sliding doors to the shower. He hops in and hugs me from behind. He starts to wash my body with some soap and a wash cloth and runs his fingers through my hair. He rests his head on my should and takes my hand. He whispered in my ear and said "I have something to discuss with you" my stomach drops to the floor. I ask myself "what if he confesses to being with another women. What the hell do I do?" I said "okay..." And he said "you have to promise me you won't get mad because I've changed and I've realized my main priorities okay?" I agreed even though I probably would be angry. He said "but first come with me" Keanu pulled me out of the shower and threw me on the bed. He started kissing my neck and my body and to be honest it felt good. Keanu and I hadn't had any physical contact in a while and I missed that. I wasn't expecting Keanu to enter me so fast but he did and was thrusting his body up and down as we kissed. Keanu was the best I had and I wasn't just saying that. He knew what I liked and he knew how to comfort me. I loved him so much and nothing he could ever say to me would ever change that. Soon after! Keanu and I just laid there naked. It wasn't awkward it was honestly relaxing. My head was resting on his chest and his hands were wrapped around me. He made me feel like the best women In the world and I loved him for that. As we were laying there I hear our alarm system. It beeped as if someone was coming in the door. I looked up at Keanu with a panicked look and said "oh god, Louis." He told me to wait up stairs and he rushed out of the bed room grabbing his robe on the way out.

I waited for about two minutes and I hear Keanu yell "SANDRA" from downstairs. I knew something was wrong because he never calls me Sandra unless it's something serious. I rush down the stairs nearly falling from the water dripping down my body from the shower. He looked into my eyes and put both hands on my arms. He said "someone broke in" I was speechless and said "have you called the cops?" He said "yes there on there way now" I was too worried about Louis. I could have cared less if a guy broke in I just wanted to make sure Louis was safe. I rush upstairs and Keanu follows me. I swing open the door to Louis's bedroom and his bed was empty..