Our crazy life

Chapter 35 Hope

Keanu's p.o.v

The past couple days have been extremly rough on Sandy. She hasn't been talking much, although I cant blame her. She just found out some pretty intense news that can determine the rest of her life. I grabbed the laptop from off the kitchen counter and took it into the living room. Sandy was upstairs sleeping and so was Louis. I quickly went to google and typed in

"Symptoms for cancer"

Up popped different kinds of cancers and the symptoms you can have.

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I came across leukemia the symptoms were...

Common symptoms of chronic or acute leukemia may include:

Swollen lymph nodes that usually don't hurt (especially lymph nodes in the neck or armpit)

Fevers or night sweats.

Frequent infections.

Feeling weak or tired.

Bleeding

4 more items..

Most of these symptoms Sandy had.. The good thing was it was curable now the only hope left is to get more tests ran and figure out the severity of her cancer. I quickly cleared the search history and put the computer back on the counter. I went upstairs and peeked inside the bedroom door. There lay Sandy with her arms wrapped around Louis hugging him tightly. They were both sound asleep. I gave them both a kiss and headed downstairs to make some dinner.

I went to the recipe cabinet and pulled out Sandy's binder filled with her recipes. I found the recipe for her moms famous lasagna. I started to pull out all the ingredients and pots and pans and then the door bell rang...

I walked over to the door and saw it was Ryan. I opened the door confused and asked what he was doing here.

"Is there any way I could talk to Sandy. I told her to tell me how her doctors apt went but she never texted me. Is everything okay?"

I told Ryan to come in because I couldn't keep news like this from him. I sat him down and said look, I'm sure Sandy will want to tell her the news herself but she's sleeping right now so you can hang around here until she gets up. I'm just making dinner so you can chill in the living room and turn on the game if you'd like. I'm sure Sandy wouldn't mind if you stayed for dinner... And let me just apologize to you. I got out of hand about the whole sex situation but now it's over with and there's nothing I can do to change it so I'm sorry.

About 20 minutes later Sandy came walking down the stairs with a long button up shirt on that was mine that came just above her knees. I met her at the end of the stairs and took Louis from her arms. I gave her a light kiss and told her she should prolly go change. I think you need to tell Ryan. He's worried about you and I invited him to stay for dinner. Sandy agree and headed back upstairs to change into something more appropriate.

Sandy's p.o.v

When I saw Ryan sitting in my living room I felt like my heart had dropped to my stomach. I had butter flies because I had to face the fact that I had to tell him eventually and that time was today. I was scared. Sharing news like this isn't easy and you never know how the other person will react. But I had to tell him..

I grabbed some pajama pants and a shirt to match and walked back down stairs. I went over to the couch and sat down next to Ryan. He told me I looked extremely weak and sick and he was worried about me.

I grabbed his hands and said

Ryan.. I'm sorry I didn't text you. I should have but the news I received from the doctors wasn't what I was expecting and I needed a couple days to process the information myself. Ryan squeezed my hands. Ryan...

I have cancer

He let go of my hands immediately and stood up raising his hands. Tears came to his eyes and he paced the floor. I stood up and he gave me the biggest hug. Sandy.. I felt his heart racing when our bodies touched. I'm so sorry Sandy. He said repeatedly. I let go of him and said "I'm going to be fine. I know I am. Okay? But listen to me ryan. Look at me. Do this for me. Go date. Go out in the world and try to love someone again. I promise you'll find the perfect girl out there okay? But the perfect girl for you isn't me. I'm married and I'm happy and when you do fine another women that makes you happy and loves you, bring her over and well have dinner. Okay?" Ryan shook his head yes and gave me a soft kiss on the cheek. Let's go eat he said.