Our crazy life

Chapter 43 "Denial"

Keanu's p.o.v

I woke up that next morning with my eyes almost glued shut from all the sobbing I did last night. My beautiful, perfect, most heart warming wife was gone forever. I would never be able to see her again here on earth. The thought made tears come to my eyes and run down my raw cheeks. Last night as I laid in bed so many thoughts were running through my mind. I thought about asking god to take my life some way and some how just so I could be with Sandy. But I could never ask that of him. I'd never take my own life. Everything happens for a reason and I need to be strong and a good father to Louis. I have yet to tell him... I'm not even sure how. I'm not even stable enough myself to think about the fact. Yet tell my own son his momma died.

Right now life is at it's very low and I'm trying, I'm trying extremely hard to be strong right now but I'm broken.

I've asked myself this same question about a million times with in the last twenty four hours.

"Have you ever just stopped and realized that if you hadn't met a certain person in your life, you're life would be completely different?"

My answer every times is "yes"

My life would be a wreck if I hadn't met Sandy. If I hadn't agreed to the movie role in Speed. I would have never met the love of my life, my sole mate my everything.

And now that's she gone, my heart has crumbled into a million tiny pieces and I just need a consoling hug from her to put all those pieces back into place.

that's all I need.

Sandy's p.o.v

I laid in the hospital bed almost all night waiting for Keanu to show up with Louis as he promised.

no show.

I picked up my phone and dialed his number...

It rang and rang and I started to panic.

"What if they got into a car accident and I have yet to know about it. What if they're hurt somewhere and have no way to call for help."

I just don't understand why he hasn't tried to call me or let me know why he didn't come last night.

I was looking forward to telling him...

"I'm cancer free"

Keanu's p.o.v

On the night stand laid my phone plugged into the charger. It started vibrating and ringing.

"Incoming call from My Beautiful Wife"

My heart dropped to the floor.

I picked up my phone and held it in my hand staring at the words

"My beautiful Wife"

no no. I said to myself. This can't be happening I have to be imagining this. Sandy is dead...

I set my phone back on the night stand and watched it ring.

In came a voice mail

I started to become weirded out. I couldn't wrap my mind around the fact that my wife is dead yet she's calling me. I slid open my phone and put it up to my ear. It said....

"You have one unheard message from My beautiful Wife"

"Hey baby, it's me. I'm not sure why you didn't come to the hospital last night to see me. I'm starting to get worried about you and Louis. I thought you would have let me know if you weren't coming. But I was going to tell you something I thought you'd love to hear....

*sniffling and crying whimpers*

"I'm cancer free. There's no more cancer in my body and I get to come home tomorrow. So please call me back when you can. I wanna see you and touch you. I feel like I haven't seen you in weeks. I need a kiss... *giggles* I love you baby."

I sat there staring at the wall in a daze very confused and scared.

"What is happening?" I asked myself aloud.