Our crazy life

Chapter 15

TWO WEEKS LATER

Today was the day of my check up with my delivery doctor. I woke up with butter flies in my stomach. I was becoming worried because I didn't feel the baby move as much as I used too. My nerves were all over the place and I was nervous to see the baby. My heart seemed as if it was going to pop right out of my chest, it was beating so fast.

I got to the hospital and did the usual. Pressed the floor number, signed in, waited in the waiting room for my name to be called. Keanu wasn't with me this appointment. I was bumped he wasn't because I had a gut feeling in my stomach something was wrong. I wanted him here to comfort me. I got a text from him as I was waiting in the waiting room

Keanu: hey baby, thinking about you. Praying your appointment goes well.

Sandy: I don't know if I can go back there today. Something's wrong and I know there is.

Keanu: honey your just getting yourself worked up. Just take a deep breathe. I'm sure everything is okay. I love you.

"Mrs Bullock" the nurse called. I got up slowly from the waiting room chair and waddled my way to the room I was in. I laid down and pulled up my shirt. Once again they pulled out the cold gel and monitor and put it on my stomach. I was squeezing my jacket to help calm myself. I was biting my nails and fiddling with the sipper on my jacket as well. The nurse moved the monitor around and stayed quiet. She walked out of the room suddenly without saying anything to me. In comes another nurse and she puts the monitor back on my stomach. She takes it off with in a minute of looking at the screen. She looks down and sighs and says "I'm going to have doctor Crawford come in now"

I knew something was up and I started feeling tears well up in my eyes. I needed Keanu and I wanted him here with me. I wanted to hear the bad news together with him. In comes doctor Crawford as he knocks on the door. He pulls the stool over beside me and says "honey, this is one of the hardest things about my job and unfortunately you had a miscarriage I'm so sorry." When I heard the words miscarriage come from his mouth I completely muted everything else he was saying. I put my head into my hands and sobbed. He stepped out of the room and told me he would give me a minute. I immediately texted Keanu an said "CALL ME NOW, EMERGENCY"'

Keanu picked up the phone and he heard me crying, he started to panic because when he asked me what was wrong I didn't say anything. I couldn't say it, I was heartbroken and it was hard for me to tell Keanu. I finally managed to say "I... The doctor told me... I had a miscarriage" Keanu didn't say a word all I heard is what sounded to be his phone dropping on the floor and he hung up.

The doctor came back in to discuss everything with me and to calm me down. He wanted to schedule another appointment to discuss what was going to happen with the baby.

I started walking out to my car as I was crying and Keanu pulls up in his truck. He puts the car in park, jumps out of the car, slams his door shut and runs over to me and picks me up in his arms.

Keanu's p.o.v.

"Baby come here, look at me" I say as I'm rubbing her head and running my fingers along her face and in her hair. I wiped the tears away from her face and carried her over to a bench sitting outside of the hospital. I held her in my arms as she sat there and cried. I rubbed her back and assured her and comforted her. She finally lifted her head from my lap and her eyes were almost swollen shut. I gently ran my finger over her eyes and said "everything happens for a reason." Sandy's says "I guess so, can we please go home. I just need to lay down. I want you to lay with me, I missed you today and I'm an emotional wreck" she says as tears were still streaming down her face. I carried her back to the truck gave her a kiss and bucked her up and we went on home.