Our crazy life

Chapter 33. Im A Fighter

Sandy's p.o.v

The word "cancer" kept repeating in my mind it seemed like a million times. I stood in the bathroom in shock looking at myself in the mirror.

This can't be happening

The doctor asked

"Do you believe in miracles?"

Those words hit me like a punch in the face. I was paralyzed; I felt numb. I was frozen in time as my body filled with anger, rage and disappointment. I didn't quite comprehend what the doctor said to me until he repeated it again, "Do you believe in miracles?"

Suddenly, I responded. "Yes." as if I was still on the phone to my doctor. And with the help of my faith and God, I walked out of the bathroom with the determination to beat my disease.

At 50 years old, I couldn't fathom my life ending so quickly. Was I really going to die of cancer? This couldn't be my life. I never imagined I would die so abruptly. I told myself, "This isn't my life. This can't be me. I AM A WARRIOR!"

I couldn't tell Keanu just yet.

I sat down on my cold bathroom floor crying and balling. I can't leave this earth. Not yet. I have a son and a husband. I can't leave them. Please I cried out. Please. Just please tell me this is a dream. I don't wanna die. I don't wanna die. I said repeatedly.

Keanu's p.o.v

I walked up the stairs and Into the bedroom. I heard whimpering come from the bathroom. I walked over to the door putting my ear in the crack.

I heard Sandy say "I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die"

My heart dropped to the floor. Tears welled up in my eyes.

The blood work I said aloud.

I opened the door quickly and fell to the ground holding Sandy in my arms.

Shhh.. Baby it's okay it's okay. Calm down. Just take a deep breath. Tell me what the results said.

"I have cancer" Sandy whispered looking up at me. She looked as pale as a ghost. She had mascara running down her face and you would have thought she was crying for hours by the look on her face.

I was speechless and I couldn't find the words to say. I tried to talk but nothing came out. I just sat there and held Sandy in my arms it seemed like for hours. I kissed Sandy seemed like a million times.

I can't loose her. Please don't take her. Please she doesn't deserve this. No one deserves to go through this but especially Sandy. She hasn't done anything wrong to deserve this. Just please don't take my wife away from me please. I cried out.

Sandy looked up at me.

"Our baby." She mouthed. "I now know. I had a miscarriage because I had cancer"

She put her head into her hands and cried out

"Baby. I'm so sorry. Mommy didn't mean to hurt you. I love you"

She looked up. And said "our babies in a better place. I'll meet our son or daughter soon"

Those words hit me like a smack in the face. The fact that Sandy thought she was going to die made chills run throughout my body.

Your not going to die Sandy. You have to have hope.