Our crazy life

Chapter 34 "I Love You Mommy"

-JUST TO BE CLEAR THIS CHAPTER GOES BACK IN THE PAST TO WHEN SANDY WAS PREGNANT.-

Sandy & Keanu's baby in heavens p.o.v

"Hi mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet. I'm only a few weeks old. Your going to find out about me soon though. I promise. Let me tell you a few things about me. My names Landon. I have brown hair and brown eyes, like daddy. Well I don't yet. But I will when I'm born. I'll be your first child that you have carried but your second son. I want to be a doctor when I grow up mommy. You found out about me today mommy. You were so excited you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile mommy. It will be the first face I see in my life and it will be the best face I see in my life. I know it already. Today was the day you told daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me. When you told him you both couldn't stop smiling and daddy said he couldn't wait to see me. Finally you can see me. Your stomach is a bit bigger and your so proud of me. You went out with daddy and bought some clothes and you were so so happy. You sing to me too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm the happiest and when you talk to me I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you mommy. I will make you proud and love you with all my heart. I can move my hands and feet now mommy. I can do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me. And I giggle. You giggle too. I love you mommy. Today you acted funny mommy. You weren't acting right. You didn't talk to me tonight mommy. Is everything okay? You haven't talked to me or touched me in 3 days. Don't you still love me mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad and sick. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake anymore? I'm 18 weeks old today mommy. Aren't you proud of me? I now know why you haven't been talking to me mommy. I know something you don't know. You have cancer mommy. But I know you will be strong. We're going somewhere today and it's somewhere new. I'm excited, it looks like a hospital too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope your as excited as I am. I can't wait. Mommy I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating but mine is slowing.... Please tell me you love me. Then I'll feel safe again. I love you mommy. Don't worry mommy. I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me you have cancer and I couldn't live in your tummy anymore. But don't worry mommy. I'll see you someday soon. I love you mommy. I love you with all my heart and I know you will stay strong. I wish I could have lived mommy. But I'm in a happier and better place now. I get to watch you laugh and smile through the clouds. I love you mommy.

sorry for the short chapter.