Our crazy life

Chapter 39 "The dreadful day"

*Just an FYI this is prolly the longest or the second longest chapter I've wrote so I hope you enjoy.*

Sandy's p.o.v

I woke up to the sound of my alarm at 4 in the morning. My eyes were heavy and my head was spinning.

"hi baby. are you ready?" Keanu asked as he rolled over from a deep sleep.

His sleepy sexy voice distracted me and I didn't say anything.

"It will be okay." He said assuring kissing my forehead

Today was a big day, and a very dreadful day. Keanu and I had to get up at the crack of dawn to go to the hospital. I was getting treatment for my cancer this morning. My stomach was in knots and I was extremely nervous. I prayed last night that this is all a dream.. A night mare hoping I'd wake up soon. But it's not. Its reality and it's my life and I'm going to have to except the fact that I might die. I might leave this earth soon. I hate to think so negatively but you have to come to terms with obstacles in your life and unfortunately cancer is mine.

Keanu's p.o.v

Today has been the day I've been dreading since the day Sandy found out she had leukemia. My stomach felt like it had been ripped out and torn into a million pieces. I don't think I've ever been so nervous and and scared in my life. The fact that my wife has cancer hasn't fully hit me yet but I know it will once I see her in that hospital bed. Truthfully I'm scared. But I'm going to be strong for Sandy. I can't let her see me upset or else things will just be worse for the both of us. There's no running away from situations like these. We all as human beings face life situations weather it be divorce, family member passing, cancer.. What ever it may be. It's hard but you have to walk into a situation like this and not give up & keep fighting which is exactly what Sandy is going to do. Keep fighting.

Every time I looked at Sandy i couldn't help but wrap my arms around her and hold her tight. I felt like I was never going to see her again and I never knew when her last breathe was going to be. Although I knew she wasn't just going to fall flat to the floor one day and die but I felt like my time with her was limited and I couldn't keep my hands off her. If I could I would hold her in my arms all day long and tell her how much I love her because I truly couldn't imagine life without Sandy. My world wouldn't be the same. I don't think I could live myself if Sandy died. I'd rather be up in heaven with her enjoying life with no pain and no worries. But I couldn't think negatively anymore. Sandy is going to live because I know she's a strong women and she's going to fight through this like a warrior.

I walked into the bath room and saw Sandy standing in the mirror. She was wearing a light weight night gown and I noticed how fragile she looked. She looked extremly weak and tired and I noticed how much skinnier she looked. Her legs and arms looked like skin and bones. I hated seeing Sandy like this. She doesn't deserve it. I walked up behind her and pulled her hair from out of her face and behind her shoulders I kissed her neck and held her tight.

"Keanu? I don't want treatment.."

Sandy's words hit me like a punch in the stomach. What do you mean? I questioned.

"I think it's better I don't get the treatment. I don't want to go through the pain. I don't want to live in a hospital for the next 6 months of my life. I don't want to loose my hair. I don't want to have doctors in my face 24/7 I don't want to do this..."

Sandy busted out into tears and fell into my arms.

"I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what I want. I don't see the point anymore and I don't see much in life showing. So why should I live" she said as her voice cracked from how much she was crying.