Your Light (Tu Luz) [Joel Pimentel]

Chapter 29

Joel Pimentel de Leon

It has been two months since Dhianna and I broke up. A span of time too long it almost felt like an eternity.

Ever since that day, I moved back to Mexico with my family because my grandma missed Mexico and we all agreed to go back.

It was a hard decision though, leaving everything I had in California. Leaving my friends, Dhianna. But she doesn't want me, and I had to accept that.

Two months, two freaking long months since I last saw her beautiful face, heard her voice and hold her tight in my arms.

The distance seems hard and as days went by, it get harder than I ever thought it could get. I missed her way too much.

I missed calling her, skyping her, breathing in her scent of lemon and strawberry. I wish I could just steal one of her pillows and sleep in her scent every night, because truly, it will helped me sleep.

And I haven't got a good night sleep and it's taking its toll on me.

The day Dhianna break it to me that she doesn't feel the same way, I was broken hearted. It was like she took a part of me with her when I walked away from her that day.

It was like there's a big hole inside me, where my heart used to belong and it hurts everytime I breathe.

Gosh, how could I ever live without her? She made me feel some type of way I don't even understand. She made me whole. When we kissed, it was like the whole world disappear and there's only us, standing, breathing the same air.

But, as time passed, I realized maybe I was the only one putting effort in this and maybe what she said was true but I prayed to god so many times that it's not.

She couldn't possibly wanting to use me for her own benefit.

She couldn't, couldn't she?

An hour ago, Chris called me and my heart sank at the fact that Dhianna is slowly deteriorating. She's losing herself again. It might be because of me but some parts of me are saying no, she doesn't love me to be affected by us parting ways.

During the call, he told me to go back to California and go back to Dhianna and I asked myself. How many times did I try before I finally moved away from her?

I called and called, and cried in front of her house but she doesn't want to see me that somehow it made me feel like a total fool for doing that.

She was so cruel, so heartless, leaving me outside in the cold, crying, begging for a piece of her heart.

It's not gonna work, my conscience once said but I went against it and failed.

She doesn't want me there but Chris had convinced me to come back.

For the sake of his best friend.

...and my best friend.

So that's what I'm going to do.

I'll come back, for as long as I can, as a friend, and nothing more.

And I promised myself, whatever it is, it was for Chris's sake and I would not let the love I had for her get in the way. The love I still strongly have for her, get in the way.

No.

No....