𝐰𝐝𝐰 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 & 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬

after laughter › j.a.

based on "after laughter" by wendy rene. also, it's really short cause i've been working too hard on the others.

after laughter, comes tears

i was hesitant to say yes to him, but those eyes, oh those eyes. they were so deep, so dark, so lovely, so beautiful. i fell into them so fast and so deep that i couldn't get myself out. and for a time, i regretted hesitating to say yes.

because those three years were the time of my life. he took me everywhere, bought me everything, showered me with compliments and gifts, hugs, kisses, and random cuddles. every three hours he posted a picture of us. i had been taken back by it, but after some time, i came to love it. the day was rare jack hadn't serenaded me with love.

after your laughter, there will be tears

and then after those three years, the happiness was over. i was no longer presented compliments and gifts, hugs, kisses, and random cuddles. i was left alone, not intentionally of course, but that's what it had turned out to be, sadly. 

i knew the reason he left wasn't his fault. he had his band, he had his tour. it was his job, and he had to maintain it. it was just hard to maintain a long distance relationship. when he left, i was so shocked and so broken. i couldn't stop crying and moping and begging for him to come back. even if we had held a long distance relationship for three years, it wouldn't have worked for that much longer.

when you're in love, you're happy. when you're in an arm, you gaze. this doesn't always last.

it was such a one-time thing. it was beautiful, and it lasted a long time, but it didn't last forever. three years felt like forever, and i was convinced it was forever. i would've liked it that way. i would've liked to spend the rest of forever waking up to a beautiful boy with beautiful eyes and a beautiful smile in the beautiful sunlight.

i would've liked taking walks and looking at the scenery of our neighborhood. i would've liked to held his hand while watching the sun fall into the horizon on top of the roof of our house. i would've liked to look into his eyes as his friends stood behind him and my friends behind me, an audience of family and friends surrounding us. i would've liked to say "i do". i would've liked to watch him hold a small hand as i held a small being. 

i would've liked it all, but is that why it ended so seemingly fast?

after your laughter, there will be tears.

i know we are meant to find someone else. i know we weren't meant for each other. but it would be nice to hold him again. it would be nice to be held by him again. 

he was the one who built a city for me. he was the one who set the world afire and didn't let a flame touch me. he was the one who stole the moon, the stars, and the sun for me, placing them gently in my hands. he was the one who drowned the hate in water until he couldn't hear the thoughts. he was the one who destroyed anything that got in our way. he was the one who fought for me and everything i wanted. he was the one who knew me to well and was always one step ahead. he was the one who dragged my body from out of the ocean, letting my lay on the sand as the waves hit my legs, watching the life rush back to me. he was the one who held my hand as i clung onto him for life while looking at the burning world below me. he was the one who picked the petals off of flowers to make me a crown. 

but he was the one who wasn't meant for me. 

EWWWWWW. THIS WAS SO BAD, I'M SO SORRY. I COULD DO MUCH BETTER. I MADE A REALLY LONG DANIEL ONE THAT I'LL BE POSTING IN A FEW HOURS (LATER TODAY).

I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS.

EVEN THOUGH YOU PROBABLY DIDN'T.

I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT I'LL TRY TO MAKE UP FOR IT. THIS IS ALREADY FAILING. GREAT.

anyway, hope you're having a good day!