Regrets

13

I have been minding my own business and the world has been minding its. That's the best thing tho.

I'm expected to give birth any time soon. And basically Cole is checking on me every 5 minutes.

"I just came to see how you are" Cole says walking into my apartment

"Im just like I was 10 minutes ago" I say

"Yeah I justed to see if you heard the news " Cole says

What news? About what?

"Related to what?" I ask him and he gives me his phone

There's an article from ' Billboard ' and as a cover , there's a photo of Shawn. I smell bad things coming

"I really want to have kids. I think that once you become a parent, you are more responsible. Chloe isn't okay with the whole having kids conversation. She is a pretty busy woman and we barely see each other later due to my upcoming tour. But I would love to have kids" I read from the article

It's the moment you realize you have done everything wrong. I should have talked to him. Chloe tricked me. Shawn really wanted kids. And now , I made the wrong decision. Sky was right. I shouldn't have trusted Chloe

I give Cole his phone and I walk towards room. I get in and lock myself in there.

I look around the room, seeing all the decorations for the baby. This baby makes me happy. Even though I'm not happy right now. I'm so stupid

I spent the night crying. Just crying and thinking. If only I could turn back time and talk to Shawn. I know I can do it now but it won't be the same

It will never ever be the same.

Around 4 AM , I wake up because I feel the baby kicking. And the pain from the baby kicking is become more and more profound. I try to get out from bed , but the pain makes it so challenging

And then it hits me ; I'm freaking giving birth. I take the bag which I made for the hospital and see Cole sleeping on my sofa

Well, I thought he would have gone. I wake him up and he seems to be lost.

"In which planet are we in?" Cole asks me .

"Earth. And now get me to the hospital" I tell him as he yawns

"Why?" He asks , resting his eyes

"I don't know because , probably, I'm giving birth" I yell at him and he rapidly gets up from the sofa

" You are doing what? Oh my God. Arthur is here. " Cole says happily. But I can't tell if he is happy or just an idiot

We go to the garage and get into Cole's car.i just keep wondering how different things would be if I had told Shawn about the baby

The baby which will be in my arms in a few hours.

Once we arrive at the hospital, the nurses take me to the delivery room. The doctor says that I'm not ready to get in labor yet, so we just have to wait

I can deep breaths , trying to call myself down and not think about how profound the pain is. Cole is outside my room , making phone calls.

Deep breaths, deep breaths

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One more chap and Shawn will be in the story