Regrets

37

The morning light falls into my eyes , making me wake up. I sit up, blinking a few types to adjust my vision before reaching over to my phone just to see that it is 7 AM.

Who on earth wakes up at 7 AM? It isn't me though

"Great. You are up" Shawn says , giving me a sarcastic smile

"Don't you have to go and do something so I can sleep" I complain, getting back under the covers. "Where's Art?" I ask him

"He is downstairs with my parents. The real question is if you are going to New York" Shawn says , sitting down on the bed

"I don't know. If I don't go, Sky will be mad at me. If I go, then Cole will need to come as well even if he doesn't want to. So technically, both option include my siblings getting angry with me. " I say, trying to think of an alternative

Maybe this isn't as dramatic as I think it is, right? Okay, I'm really want to go and meet up with her. But then, I remember what she didn't give a damn about us all these years and the fact that she decided to give now is weird.

"I think that you should go to New York and talk it out with Sky and Cole first. And Art can stay here with me." Shawn suggests

"There's no way I can go New York and not take Art with me"

"Why not? I'm his dad. Besides that, I should really spend some time with him. " Shawn says, clenching his jaw

This is too early in the morning to get in a fight with him. I just need to sleep and think of what I'm doing to do ; fly to New York or stay in Canada

And there's another think added to the list I should consider ; go to New York and let Art stay with Shawn

"Okay okay. I will think about it." I say , trying to make things better

I always mess up things and then try to make them better.

Shawn simply nods as I get out bed and walk downstairs. I really want to go to New York. But at the same time, I don't want to.

Karen and Manny are in the kitchen, casually drinking their coffee and chatting. After telling them a good morning, I move on to the living room where Art is, playing with his toys

"How's my boy?" I ask him as I sit next to him

"I'm okay. I want to stay here" Art says, still playing with his toys

"You like it here, don't you"

"Yeah I like it so much" Art says, extending his hands just to explain how much he loves it here

I giggle at how cute he is before messing with his hair and heading back upstairs. Shawn is still in the room, scrolling his phone.

"I'm thinking of posting some pictures of Art. If you are okay with it" Shawn asks as I sit down on the office chair

"I'm okay with it. The world already knows about Art so it's fine" I say and Shawn nods

I take my phone out of my pocket and start searching for a plane ticket. Well, I guess I'm going to New York.

"I'm going to New York tomorrow" I say and Shawn seems surprised to hear that

"So you are going to meet up with your mom?" Shawn asks me

"Probably. I will just talk with Cole and Sky first." I say, shrugging my shoulder

"Is Art coming with you?"

"No. You are right, you are his dad and you should spend some quality time with him."

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