Regrets

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After we pay for our food, we decide to just walk around the city and talk about random things. Plus, Cole is keeping an eye on Art and he's a good babysitter.

"My mom and I were never mother-daughter goals. She would always be too busy for us. Cole told me that the real reason she and dad got a divorce is because she cheated. And after all of these years , and after practically not caring about us, she came to meet us and insult me. It doesn't make sense. It's just weird" I confess, sighing softly

"Did you try talking to your mom or Sky? Maybe it's a misunderstanding" Shawn suggests, shrugging his shoulders

"I really care to be honest. If Sky wants to stay with mom, so be it. Don't get me wrong, she's my sister and I love her but everything is just so messed up. Maybe it's a misunderstanding, who knows. But I just want to spend some quality time with you and Art as a family rather than thinking about mom and other shit"

"I really like it when we just talk to each other rather than arguing" Shawn says as a smirk appears on his face

"Can I ask you something?"

"Of course"

"Do you hate me for not telling you about my pregnancy and finding out that you have a son years later?"

"I don't hate you. When I saw you at the park, my heart started racing and when I saw Art, I was so confused. To be honest, I'm still a little bit angry with you for not telling me about your pregnancy but I can't hate someone I love and the one who gave birth to my child. You know what I mean?" Shawn says, with a smile on his face

Okay, I get it that Shawn is kind of angry with me for not telling him about Art in the first place. I'm angry at myself too.

We keep on talking about random things and exploring the city. I don't even know where we are going. I pull my jacket tighter around me as it's pretty chilly. There's a motel down the street and I look over at Shawn, who is looking at me.

Maybe he is thinking what I'm thinking. Maybe not. Shawn takes my hand and we walk towards the motel. We walk in and the friendly receptionist smiles at us , making us feel like home. We ask him if there's any room available and he nods, giving us the keys

Shawn unlocks the door to our room and as soon as I walk in and he closes the door, I feel his hands on my waist. His lips are presses against my lips.

He sits down on the bed and I sit on his lap, still not breaking the kiss. He slowly takes off my shirt and my insecurities remind me that they are here so I try to cover my body with my hands. Shawn notices how insecure I must feel so he breaks the kiss and lifts my chin with his fingers so that our eyes meet

"You don't have to be insecure about your body and feel uncomfortable. You're perfect. You're beautiful. Not only in the outside but also in the inside. I love you for being you. It's okay if you are not ready to make love" Shawn says, putting a smile on my face

Our lips reconnect and I feel the butterflies on my stomach

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