Regrets

14

It has been 6 freaking hours since I came to the hospital and I'm still waiting in the delivery room. I just can't. The pain is killing me.

"Are you okay?" Cole asks me

"No. I'm not okay. I'm in pain" I yell at him as I let a few tears roll down my cheeks

I keep taking deep breaths. That shit doesn't help at all.

Sky with Martin come running into the room. Sky? Oh my God

"Oh Lord. How are you? Are you in pain? You still haven't given birth? Where's the administration of this hospital?" Sky asks me , sitting by my side and holding my hand

"Should I call the nurse, to give you some drugs?" Martin asks me

"No. I just want to give birth and go home with my baby" I say

The baby is moving around my belly. We are naming him Arthur after all and we are gonna call him ' Art ' . It's a weird name but you know what? I don't care. It's cute and unique

After a few minutes, the nurse comes into the room to check on me and inform us that the baby is  coming soon. Bish I'm not ready yet.

I get in the labor room , where the doctor and a couple of nurses are. The nurses check my blood pressure while the doctor gets ready to deliver the baby

"Okay, Violet, just push when I say so. This is the one thing I'm asking from you" the doctor says

I can do this

"You got this Violet. You are the baby momma" Sky says getting into the labor room , wearing the greenish uniform

"Why are you here?" I ask her

"Martin and Cole were about to faint so i didn't want to risk it. " Sky says. Reasonable

"Okay Violet, in the count of 3 , you are going to push as hard as you can  " the doctor says and I just nod " 1,2,3 " the doctor yells and I push with all my energy , while holding Sky's hand

"We can see the head" one of the nurses inform us.

My baby boy

"Cmon Violet. You are powerful. Think that you will be holding Arthur in a few moments" Sky says , trying to motivate me

"Ready Violet? Push, push , push" the doctor yells

I push with all of my remaining energy. I hold Sky's hand and I think I broke her hand. I keep pushing successively.

I feel like I have zero energy remaining. I just want to cry , can I?

"Violet, listen to me. You are going to give one final push and then , you can hold your son, okay?" The doctor says and I nod. I don't even have the energy to speak

I give a final push when the doctor says so. A few moments later , I hear a baby crying. My baby. I start crying like a 4 year old and Sky cries along with me

"I'm an aunt" Sky says happily

"I'm a mom" I say , crying. But these are tears of joy

The nurse brings us the baby . She puts him on my chest. This is the skin-to-skin method. So that the baby will know I'm his mom

"He's beautiful" Sky says

I look at him. His small features. His small hands. I love him

"Welcome to the family Arthur" I say , kissing his small forehead

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I almost forgot to update 😂💓
So in the next chapter, Shawn will be in :)