Regrets

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Shawn and I decided to keep our engagement a secret. In the end, the past few months there was nothing but drama. And let me tell you that it didn't help at all. So, keeping it low and casual will hopefully be better. And also be less controversial and less likely to create drama.

Anyways, things are going pretty well. Eventually, Sky and I got along. She came over a few weeks ago and we are cool now. Even Cole forgave her for being a total bitch. Yet, we still have to meet up with our half siblings and mom.

Dad went back home and makes sure he calls in a daily basis. Someone said that I'm pregnant on Twitter and my dad fell for it.

Art is really happy that we officially a family now and likes spending his time with us and Shawn's parents when they come over.

"Will you tell your mom that we are getting married?" Shawn asks me as I take a luggage out of the closet

"I don't know to be honest. If I tell her, she will definitely tell everyone. And you know how these things go. In a matter of time, everyone will know that we are engaged. On the other hand, If I don't let her know, she will get mad and call me like a hundred times when she finds out. Both scenarios are bad since they involve my mom" I confess, making Shawn giggle a little bit

"I think that you are exaggerating. And overthinking simple things" Shawn says

"I'm not exaggerating you know" I say and Shawn gives me an ' oh really ' face " Okay maybe a little bit but my whole life I thought that I only have two siblings ; Sky and Cole. And out of sudden, I have two half siblings" I say, trying not freak out

"Relax. Take a deep breath. Everything will be already. You will just go there, meet them and that's all. Then you will come back home." Shawn says, placing a kiss on my forehead and then walking out of the room

Easy for him to say. His family is perfect while mine is crazy

A few minutes later, Art walks in holding his teddy lion, which Shawn gave him

"What's up baby?" I ask him as he sits down , next to me , playing with his teddy

"Where are you going?" He asks me, his baby voice making him even cuter

"I'm going to auntie Sky. I'll be back real soon" I say, giving him a kiss

"I miss you being always home" He says, and then walks out of the room

And just like that, my 3 year old son, broke my heart.

What Art just said , reminds me so much of my mom when I was a child. She would never stay at home for more than a week or so. And when she did , she would be in her bedroom most of the time.

I know that since we moved in Canada, I have been traveling a lot. It's not that I want to, but I previously said , my family is crazy. I really want to stay here and not go meet my mom. But I already made a promise to Sky and I can't break it. Is it worth all these things though?

After I make sure I got everything I need in my luggage, I head to the kitchen to grab something to eat.

Shawn is also there, preparing dinner

"Can I ask you something?" I ask him as I sit down on one of the chairs

"Sure"

"Am I like my mom?"

"Well, you look more like your dad to be honest"

"I don't mean that. Art said that I travel a lot. And that he wished I could just stay at home with you. And that just reminded me of my mom. And you know that she is just a good role model"

"It is true that you don't spend that much time with us anymore. But, no, I would never say that you are like your mom. I know for sure that you love us and that you would prefer to be here when you are abroad. So you don't have to worry about this too"

Maybe Shawn is right. Maybe I shouldn't worry so much

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