Because of Lauren ✔ Jenzie

18. "Nothing. Nothing at all."

A/N: May I just point out, I'm killing it with these early updates!

 So... I changed the cover :) @jenzieheart_created it, I'm sure you've heard of Emily and her amazing stories. I'm currently binging on 'Talented'.

Finally, a chapter in Johnny's POV. When was the last time that happened haha? Enjoy the chapter!

JOHNNY'S POV:

I took Lexi's hand, taking off my smile once I saw Kenzie's expression. Was it... Jealousy? No. It couldn't be. 

Annie told me a while back that Kenzie lost all feelings she had towards me. And boy was I bummed out to hear about that. I missed her. I missed having her as a friend and having her to talk to. 

Before that happened, Kenzie hadn't talked to me for a week. She wouldn't even look at me, I don't think she noticed that I glanced at her from time to time. 

I needed her in my life. She gripped me on the ground and kept me from doing stuff I'll regret. The only thing I regret is breaking her sweet little heart. 

I finally caught some of her attention when Hayden beat me up. Mackenzie seemed pretty curious as to why I didn't fight back to Hayden. Well, he was my friend. I knew we would forgive each other eventually. So I just went with it. 

I never realized how beautiful Kenzie was before, I guess you don't realize how good something is until you lose it. 

I like her. That's all I know. I like her. I'm not going to deny it anymore, because dismissing it hasn't gotten me anywhere.

She had this smile that I would admire to see more often. It's gorgeous. She's gorgeous. It's not just what's on the outside, she has a wonderful heart that other girls would kill for.

But I'm not going to jump to any conclusion and say that 'she's the one' or anything like that. 

I don't love her. Because, after all, you don't hurt someone you love. And if I really loved her, I wouldn't have hurt her.

Kenzie asked if I liked her, I panicked and lied. I basically called her ugly and compared her to Annie. I would never say that to someone I love. 

I noticed that I haven't really talked to many girls, since the fallout with Kenzie. I was too caught up with her, that I didn't really have time to notice several girls.

I didn't want my reputation to go down, people are now saying that Mackenzie made me 'soft' or some crap like that. So I picked a girl for the next 2 days. That girl was Lexi.

Lexi's been drooling all over me for a while now, so I might as well.

I promised myself that I would stay away from Kenzie. I'm not good for her. But I had to kiss her and just get it over with. So I kissed her one time. It didn't even count, considering it was just on the forehead. I promised myself that I would stay away from her after that.

But I broke my promise. I wore her hoodie, the next day. Which was really stupid of me. I'm supposed to be getting over Kenzie, not flirting with her.

I just can't help it. I can't seem to stay away from her.

(After the third period).

I throw my books into my locker, slamming the door shut and quickly locking it. I forgot my phone on the floor. After walking for a few seconds, I go back and pick my phone up.

Brandon has been blowing up my phone, from the hundreds of texts on snap chat. I don't even remember the last time I talked to him, I'm not even going to bother to answer. How am I supposed to tell Kenzie's ex that I like her?