Trixie Mattel /City Lights Ain't Got Nothing On Country Lights

You Can Run In The Cover Of The Night Sky When It Falls

**More of a Katya chapter for all those Katya fans ;)) **

Throwing myself on to the bed like a blubbering mess. I cried in to the hotels , white sheets , my meakeup smearing on to them. I didn't care. The mess on the bed was nothing compared to the mess in my head. My heart was aching. Why would she do that? Did I do something wrong? Did she go on this tour to meet her toy boy instead? I picked up the bed pillow and buried my head in to it , screaming loudly. My lungs lost air, my throat began to burn. I screamed and screamed out my fustartion and anger. This surprise was a bad idea from the get go. I pulled the pillow back from my face and inhaled the air. I gritted my teeth, launching the pillow at the wall. I held my head in my hands. I am not staying here. I needed a friend. I didn't have many . Trixie was my best friend. I searched around the bed for my phone and held it in my hands. I scrolled through the contacts. Who did I want to speak to?  Who could I trust and speak openly to ? I paused for a moment on a certain contact. Katya?  I pressed the green ring button and held the phone to my ear. It kept ringing and ringing. Maybe she was busy. I was about to give up hope, until.

"Hello?" Said a voice. My lip trembled as I heard Katya's voice.

"Katya.... " I started, holding back the tears. I didn't know what to say. I was stuck for words. Every part of me was broken.

"(Y/N)? Are you ok ? Where are you? Do you need help?" She sounded so worried for me. I smiled a little. 

"I'm away. I am on Trixies tour" I said quietly , trying to contain my tears.

"Your all the way out there! Well I can't walk that far to get you? What's the matter?" She said. Her voice soothed me as I managed to be strong and hold back from having a breakdown. 

"She is cheating on me" My heart exploded with those words. My body shivered at the image replaying in my head of her kissing that boy.

"What! This is a joke right?"

"No. I'm coming home right now , I am not staying another minute in this place" I whined. Just as Katya was about to speak ,I heard  soft knock from my hotel door. 

"Katya, I will ring you as soon as I am back safe. Will you come over to our apartment?" I said, still classing it as "Our" apartment, even though I didn't know if Trixie was even with me anymore.

"Of course. You can count on me" Katya answered. I felt a small smile creep across my face. I knew she would be there for me .I hung up on Katya and slowly walked to the door. It better not be Trixie. I can't stand the sight of her at the moment. I opened the door slowly. Room service?

"Hi Miss (Y/S)?. These were left in reception for you" Said a young , well dressed girl. She had the hotel logo on her white polo shirt that was tucked in to her black, pencil skirt. I looked down at her hands. She held a small bouquet of red roses. My favourite. My eyes began to pool again.

"Sorry you have the wrong room" I said harshly before slamming the door in the poor girls face. I stormed over to my suitcase and began to refill it. I only just got here and already on my way back. If I hadn't been here would she have come back home and told me what she did? Was it a joke? Did she know him? Maybe he was just a super fan and she felt she had to as he was overly comfortable with her? My mind swaying up and down like a see - saw. No. I saw ecactly what happened. She kissed him. In front of me!  I pulled my suitcase through the hotel in a temper and down to the lobby, outside in to the warm fresh air. I looked up at the sky. My chest tight, my heart low. I couldn't see any stars like back home. The street lights, busy roads and cars drowned out the beauty of the world and sky. Trixie always told me " City lights ain't got nothing on country lights". She was right. There was nothing like the tranquillity of the stars. I huffed and managed to flag down a taxi.

Back home I zoomed out of the airport , in to yet another taxi and to the apartment. On arriving, the apartment door was already ajar. Oh fuck have I been robbed? I opened up the door slowly, peering in. There was a tiny flicker of light from the living room. Is my house on fire? Are there squatters in here? I have only been gone just less than twenty four hours.

"H-_hello" I said with unease. I moved further in to the apartment , entering the living area. My heart dropped and I soon retained it. Katya was sat on the sofa, full drag. She wore a black, netted dress with see through netted arms. She had a silver necklace around her neck. Her black stiletto heels were still straped around her feet. Candles were lit on the coffee table with a bottle of wine and two glasses already filled. The television was on quietly. She was smoking a cigarette as I walked in.  The window was slightly open, sucking out the cigarette smoke as she exhaled. She was the only one I would allow to smoke in the apartment. I didn't like it but as it was Katya.That, and she always seemed to set the main building's fire alarm system off.

"Katya?" I said. She turned her head and gave a warm smile. She stood up and opened her arms. I dropped my luggage and threw myself in to her arms. She held me tighly and stroked my hair. That was it. I cried and I cried in to her chest, the mix of cigarettes and her perfume filled my nose as I pushed myself harder in to her. Her body was warm against mine. My hands dug in to her skin as I couldn't find myself to leave her go.

"It be ok."She soothed. I relaxed and peeled myself from her. I looked up at her beautiful painted face as she looked down at me, Her straight, blonde bob around her face and shoulders. She smiled warmly.  She took my hand and sat me down on the sofa. She sat closely next to me, reaching over and passing me a wine glass. She took one for herself.

"You don't drink Katya" I said confused watching as she took a sip of the red wine.

"One wont hurt" She said again with a smile before placing the glass gently on the glass table in front of us. She put her hand on my thigh. I felt comforted to know someone was there for me.

"Now. Tell me everything " She said. I lifted the glass to my lips and took a big swig of the red contents , gulping loudly. She watched my every move as I cleared the glass and put it down next to hers. 

"Well, I decided to give Trixie a surprise on her tour as I found all her information and plane tickets in the apartment. I got there and went down to the club area. This boy had his arm around her and they . They ...." I paused. The though again ripping in to my mind and heart.

"Kissed" I said in a whisper.  My eyes welled up and tears began to stream downwards. It was hurting more each time I thought back to it . Katya pulled my arm toward her. Taking me again in her arms. I concealed myself in to her neck , her hair brushing against my face as I buried myself. She ran her hands up and down my back as I broke down in her arms. I was a mess. This is what heartbreak felt like. I didn't even know if Trixie had even called or text. I had left my phone switched off in my luggage. I was hurting to much. I wonder if she regretted it? I wonder what she is doing right now?  Did she call? Maybe she had an explanation. Katya stopped the hug and looked at me. She put her hands around my face as she peered in to my eyes, her glistening in to mine.

"You look so run down. You need some sleep" She suggested. I nodded . I was so drained. The two quick plane journeys, the drama. It was early hours of the morning, it was pitch black outside. She sat herself back into the sofa. She placed her feet up on to the coffee table and patted her lap as if I were a pet cat and needed a cuddle.

"Come put your head here" She offered. I hesitated for a moment. My mind buzzing and my body aching I accepted and placed my head in to her lap, I brought my feet up on to the couch and faced the Tv. Her hands began to run through my knotty hair , her nails scraping gently against my scalp. She eased the pain a little. I found my eyes beginning to get heavy as she intertwined her fingers through my locks. She shushed me like a baby as my eyes began to shut and I fell asleep. So peaceful with the though of someone there to comfort me. The television was on a low volume as Katya continued to play with my hair and watch her programme. I felt safe for a second. I felt relaxed. I never thought something like this would happen to me. The love I had for Trixie and she went and did that to me.  I didn't want to think about it. I don't ever want to relive that memory. Heartbreak. I never knew it hurt this bad. I felt something warm against my cheek but couldn't open my eyes with the power of sleep overpowering me. Katya kissed me gently, leaving a mark of lipstick. She was the sweetest. I was lucky to have her.