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My eyes are heavy as I throw a blanket onto my bed. Leah and I used to do sleepovers all the time. Now, with everything going on in our big senior year I feel like I've hardly spent any time with her. Leah's sleeping at my feet and I'm sleeping at hers. I'm glaring at the ceiling, hoping I could fall asleep with all the awkward vibes floating in the room.
She's throwing a blanket over her legs when I stop glaring at the ceiling.
"What was Norah's night, really like?" I whisper. Suddenly embarrassed I have to go to my best friend for tea about my sisters Prom night. I feel my stomach churning, and I sit up to look down at Leah. She's sitting up too.
"I swore an oath," Leah sighs, messing with the loose string on one of my pillowcases. "Norah wanted no one to know..." I prop myself up against the wall where the headrest of my bed should be. I glared at my blanket, hoping I could disappear. Why was talking about Norah so...akaward?
"Her boyfriend just broke up with her," I felt my eyes bulge, like damn. Who breaks up with someone like that? On Prom night of all nights. I feel sorta bad about having Leah tell me the dirt about Norah. The feeling instantly goes away when I notice Leah's looking from some kind of reaction from me. Am I going to be the protective big brother who beats this kid up or the silent-angry big brother who glares at the guy next time I see him?
"Oof," I wince, messing with the crinkle of my bedsheet. So obviously, I'm going to be the silent type. Suddenly, I felt like an idiot. Why did I think it was smart to marry Bram? When my sister is obviously hurting, I can't reach her, and I choose the night she gets dumped to get engaged to my boyfriend?
I'm so selfish.
"So..." Leah tries to change the subject. "You and Bram have fun?" she's trying to be casual. Like "Oh Simon, I know things are pretty bad for Norah but how are you and your fiance doing?" It kinda made me guilty. I tried not to think too hard about any of this. The question was did I tell Leah? I had a sneaking suspicion she already knew about Bram and me. What did I say? What did you say to your best friend -- that you're getting married?
How did you say it?
"Yeah, uh about Bram..." I fidget, curling my toes under the blanket. The room goes dead silent. Leah's staring at me, waiting for me to continue. I sigh, closing my eyes and listening to the sound of my ceiling fan go around and around. "Can we not talk about it?" I whisper, finally.
I don't know if it's a miracle, or if Leah was really tired but instead of pestering me about it, Leah just rolled over and said goodnight. JUST LIKE THAT. She didn't even push me. She was drifting when she whispered, "I'm always here for you Si, even when you don't want to talk I'll be here," she closed her eyes before I could say anything.
It actually felt really good knowing I had someone who had my back. (Next to Bram... obviously).
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love, simon
Fanfictionsimon's out. and so is his boyfriend. the whole school knows - but now what? with applying to college coming up, and graduation soon, will bram and simon survive the end of the school year?
