My Saviour - Tanner X Woods

Chapter 4 - I Can Help You

Woods POV

I dried my eyes and calmly opened the door to see Tanner laying on the floor crying quietly to himself. He slowly looked up at me and I dropped to the floor and consumed him in a massive hug. "I'm so sorry for everything. You mean so much to me and you're the only perosn who knows. I just want to be okay. I hide how I feel so I don't hurt the ones I love and this is what happens when I open up."

"Woods, please listen to me, you aren't hurting me by talking about how you feel. It just upsets me to know that you feel like this and you do this to yourself just to cope with your mind. I don't mind you being honest and talking to me about how you feel. I don't mind at all. Because then I know you have somebody and I know that somebody truly does care."

I stood up and put my hand out for him. He grabbed it and I pulled him up into a tight hug. "I'm sorry" I whispered. Tanner pulled me even closer.

We eventually separated from each other's grasp and I headed towards my room. He follows shortly behind me watching me as I go. "Please let me see your arms." Tanner said quietly. I felt my breathing change and I forgot how to breathe. I was having a panic attack. I went light headed and ended up having to lay flat out on the floor. I felt as though I was spinning. My palms were so sweaty and I was gasping for air. Tanner had his hand placed on my waist to try and comfort me. I was shaking like mad and couldn't get my self into a place where I could sort myself out.

"Music" I managed to get out through the gasps of air.
"One second I will find your phone." Tanner said and swiftly got up. He went to my bedside table and grabbed my phone. luckily it had my headphones wrapped around it. He placed the phone in my hand and I tried to put on my music.

I clicked on the first song I saw. It was by Sleeping With Sirens. I put my headphones in my ears and just let the music help me drift away. I soon calmed down but the light headedness didn't go so i continued to lay on the floor for a while until it cleared.

"Woods. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset you like that. I didn't know this would happen." Tanner said almost pleading.
"It's okay, you didn't mean to. I am just not used to people caring like you do. Scott cares but I can tell he doesnt really listen to what I'm saying." I said trying to keep my breathing track. "When I talk to him its over message. I only get really bad a night and so I have to text him and he doesn't really pay attention. I can tell. It's difficult. I can't open up to anybody because when I have previously, they have left me and so I have had to be alone. I don't trust anybody to be there. I have stopped talking to Scott about how I feel because I just feel like a massive burden." Tanner sighed and lowered his head.
"You can always talk to me. I don't care what time it is or how small you think it might be, just call me or text me and we can talk about it. I really don't mind. You aren't a burden I promise. All I want to know is that you are okay and I want to help you if you aren't. I will always listen to you. I get that it will be difficult for me to understand but I will try my hardest." Tanner said sincerely. I smiled and hugged him.

He leaned backwards and pulled himself up of the floor and then helped me up. We headed downstairs and we grabbed some food. We sat on the sofa and discussed what Tanner does at the office.

A few hours had passed and it was now 3pm. "So what do you want to have for dinner?" Tanner asked. I thought for a while trying to decide what we should have.
"Could we have pizza?" I asked kind of nervous in case he said no.
"Yeah sure. What sort do you Like?"
I was shocked by his cheery response. "Um, do you have a menu or something?" He walked over to a drawer and pulled out an old, crumpled menu. "Ah thanks" I smiled and he sat back down next to me.

A few hours passed and we had eaten food and were now cuddling. Tanner was curled up on the sofa and I was in front of him resting on his chest. His arm was placed gently around me and a blanket covered us both. We watched Netflix and were half way through the second series of what we were watching when Tanner turned and looked at me. He placed a gentle kiss on my head. "I love you" he turned back to look at the TV.

I turned his face back to look at me. "I love you too" I pressed my lips against his and pulled myself closer to him. We stayed like this for a short while. I pulled away and went back to leaning on his chest. I smiled to myself and felt my cheeks flush red. Tanner kissed my head again before returning to his relaxed position. We carried on watching Netflix for a few hours.

At some point I must have drifted to sleep but I was awoken to Tanner tapping me lightly on the shoulder. I jolted up forgetting where I was. "Hey, it's 11pm. Do you wanna head to bed? You fell asleep like two hours ago. I didn't want to wake you but I didn't want to leave you in the cold down here." He looked genuinely concerned for me.

"Yeah. We can go to bed if you want." Tanner gave me his hand an pulled me up and the covers fell on the ground. He picked me up bridal style and carried me up stairs. He stopped just outside of my room. "Do you want to sleep in mine tonight?" He asked smirking a little.
"Yeah. If that's okay with you." Tanner nodded and carried me into his room. He placed me onto the bed and then flopped next to me on his back. "So uh. I'm going to get my stuff and get changed. I shall return soon."
"Okay" Tanner smiled. I walked out of his room and headed back to mine. I grabbed my back and pulled out another long sleeved top and trackies. I didn't want him to get upset again and I didn't want him to see my pain. I got changed and then went to the bathroom. I used the toothbrush that Tanner gave me when I arrived. I dodnt dare look into the mirror. I didn't want to think about that right now. That's for tonight. Tanner didn't have any idea of my plans. Although, now I'm staying in his room my plan might be more difficult to execute but we can try. My last night will be spent with an amazing, loving man and I then get to leave him as he lays in his bed contentedly. He would never know.

I headed back into his room. He was laying under the covers shirtless. I blushed again. I walked up to the bed and sat down on the edge. I placed my head in my hands and tried to hide like everytime. Tanner leant over to me and pulled me over in a hug. "Come on. We need to sleep. We have to go to work tomorrow. Matt should have decided if you got the job by then."

I slowly got under the covers and faced Tanner. He shuffled closer to me and I felt the heat radiating from his body. I leant into him and closed my eyes. He placed his arm around me and got comfortable before drifting to sleep.

My plan was half way completed. Tanner was asleep. Now for phase two. The escape...