My Saviour - Tanner X Woods

Chapter 15 - It Will Be Okay

Woods' POV

I can't tell Tanner about Jamie. I don't know what could happen. Jamie may come back and do it again. I don't know. All these thoughts raced through my head and I got so panicked. I tried to leave the room as fast as I could and get outside or into a bathroom cubicle. I knew I would end up collapsing if I didn't sit down.

I quickly made my way outside avoiding eye contact with the awkward gazes that looked around me. I felt everybody's eyes burning my skin as I hurried out. I couldn't focus on one thing at a time. My breathing had shifted and I knew I wouldn't be able to stop it. As soon as I got outside I went around the corner and fell to the cold, concrete floor. I blacked out.

Tanners POV
Woods suddenly rushed out. I could see him getting worse and worse and I didn't know what to do. I was scared to go after him in case I made him worse. I ripped all the wires and monitors from me and wandered around searching for Woods.

After a few long minutes of searching, I found him laying awkwardly on the floor outside. "Woods?" I shook him a little and pulled him close to me. " Woods, wake up." His weary eyes began to open.

I looked at him and saw his sad and teary eyes. He quickly looked away from me and I see there is something he's trying to hide. I reached for his hand but it's cold and he pulled away nervously. I knew something was wrong.

"I've made a really stupid mistake." He begins to tremble and his voice breaks a little. Tears fell softly down his cheeks. "I saw how happy you were at work and it hurt. I felt like I could never make you happy like everybody else can. I'm so negative all the time and you don't laugh the same with me. Your smile is amazing and your laugh makes my heart flutter. But I have the same constant thought that I can never make you laugh like that." He pulled his knees up go his chest and he placed his hands over his tear stained face, sobbing heavily.

I pulled his frail body close to mine and placed my arm tightly around his shoulders. "Nobody has ever made me feel the way you do. It's amazing. Your fascination over small things. The stars for example. How each one means something to you. How you see beauty in everything even when your mind is dark. The why you make me feel is so incredible and I have no words to explain it. I suppose your fascination of the stars is like how I see you." I tried to calm him a little. He blushed but I could still see the pain and disbelief in his eyes.

"Tanner?" He looked at me like a small child. His eyes seemed to melt my heart. Warm chocolate brown eyes. "You don't hate me do you?" He asked as a tear rolled down his cheek. "I could never hate you Woods. No matter what happens or has happened." I gently lifted his chin with one hand and wiped away his tears. "Now let's get back inside. We will sort it all out. I promise."

We headed back into the hospital. A few slightly concerned faces looked at. The female nurse rushed over to us. "Everything okay?? You need to get back into bed Tanner." She held my arm and led me back to my bed. "Where did you go?" I looked at Woods slightly. I didn't want to say anything in case they pushed him to answer questions. "Just making sure Woods is alright. He was a little upset but we will be alright. Won't we?" I looked at him warmly and he smiled a little and nodded before quickly averting his gaze clearly feeling awkward.

"Right. I'm going to organise a few scans to just be safe and we will keep you under observation for a few hours and then you are free to go." She smiled. I nodded and she left.

"Tanner we need to talk." Woods started. Before he could continue, Jamie walked in. Woods immediately clenched my hand tighter but I could feel his shaking worsen and I noticed his breathing shift again. He looked frantically at his watch. It was slightly worn and scratched but it worked. Why was he panicking about the time?

"I'm taking you for your scans. You ready?" Jamie asked. I nodded slightly and glanced at Woods who was gripping firmly onto my hand causing my hand to become red. "Woods, I'm going for my scans." His attention suddenly switched to me. He nodded and went back to watching his watch.

"Come on then Tanner." Jamie smiled. I wasn't sure why Woods was so scared. He seemed like a nice guy but he must not have been for Woods to be so terrified of him. Maybe he has changed though. People change, don't they?

As we went down the corridors, I saw many people rushing by and going about their business. The low hum of conversations echoed down the halls. Not one able to be heard properly. The quiet panicked breath of Woods followed close by.

We finally reached the scanning room and I was placed into a room on a small table bed. I was left alone. Woods and Jamie were in the room on the other side of a glass wall. The position I had to lay in stopped me from being able to see them.

I couldn't hear much due to the sound of the machine buzzing loudly around my head. "How are you feeling Tanner?" Jamie asked.

"I'm alright, going to be happy to get home though." I laughed. I thought about how I could finally get to snuggle up with Woods on the sofa again and he could fall asleep in my arms. Having him in my arms was the greatest honour of all. He doesn't like hugs and yet he let's me hug him. It felt amazing.

"Not long now Tanner." Jamie stated. I heard a small sob through the speaker. I knew it was Woods. I didn't know what to do. I would be out soon and I could hug him and make sure he was okay soon but I just wanted to be by his side now. I didn't know what to do.

I hesitantly waited for the scan to be over. When we got back to the ward I consumed him in a massive hug and he cried into my shirt. "It's okay. Its okay. It's all going to be okay. We will get through it."