NOTICE ME : A Peter Kavinsky Story

a kind word

"You okay?" Sophia asked as she lingered around after I hung up with Peter.

I nodded silently lying to myself when all I secretly wanted to do was lay in my bed with the covers pulled over my head and cry.

Sophia came closer to me and hugged me tightly. She always could tell when I was lying, that's what best friends do
.. they help you when you can't help yourself.

"Camreigh, you and Peter...." she started to speak up but hesitated.

I laughed a little at her

"Go ahead" I said signaling her to continue.

"Camreigh, you don't have anything to worry about. You and Peter have something I can't even to begin to describe. The way he has changed just being around you, and loving you.. something like that isn't just going to fade from miles away. It's going to grow stronger I just know!!" Sophia said boosting my confidence about this whole situation from a 25 to a 100.

It's not that I didn't trust Peter from Miles away, I just wanted to be completely selfish and keep him for myself. I know how awful that sounds, but since I have been with him this long, I didn't know how to be just me anymore...

Maybe I wasn't scared of just being without Peter anymore, I was scared because I didn't know who I was anymore without him.

Sophia left not long after since we had school the next day, but I couldn't sleep for the duration of the night.

I tossed and turned until I finally called Peter.

While the phone rang in my ear I sat up in my bed impatiently waiting for him to answer. I almost gave up after the sixth ring when Peter's groggy voice came through in a raspy tone.

"He-h-hello?" He said seemingly from a deep sleep.

"Hey" I said waiting for him to say something back to me.

I could hear him moving around in his bed.

"Is- everything alright?, are you okay?" He asked trying to wake himself up better on the other end.

I sat quietly for a minute, I felt stupid for waking him up to listen to me whine.

"I can't sleep....." i said, feeling myself get upset.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa" he said "what's wrong?"

"I lied to you earlier... I am terrified of you leaving for college.. and I hate myself for being so selfish I-I" I said when he cut me off.

His voice was still in a sexy raspy tone, "babe, I know that. I know you pretend to be okay when your not. Your not selfish, why dont we skip school today.... spend the day together really talk about things..." he said.

It caught me off guard of course and I just had to be a nerd about the situation. "We have a test in Bio" I said when he broke his sleepy state with laughter. "You really are a dork you know that brown" he said still laughing.

It broke my seriousness too as I laughed along with him.

"Come on. I'm serious Cam, I think we really need some time together... to be honest I've been secretly praying for you to tell me not to go.... but I know you wont" he said. It made me feel good to know that I could talk to him about anything even if it was at four a.m. on a morning before school.

I sighed "Yea-Yeah! I think it sounds like a great idea P" I said hearing him get situated in bed again.

"Wannt me to stay on the phone til you fall asleep?" He asked sweetly as I pulled the covers over my shoulders and laid sideways on my pillow to the right.

"Please..." I answered hearing what seemed like him smile on the other side.

"I love you" he said.
And just like that I was asleep before I could even reply.

Its crazy how one person can make you feel better in a matter of seconds.