This is about starvation and weight loss so if you don't like those type of topics don't read. Thought I would say that but I think it will be okay.
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Waking up from a two hour nap you still feel exhausted. The bags under your eyes were now too much. You have never had them before but it was all getting to you.
Standing up you swear you could have feel back down again. You dragged your feet along with you as you walked towards you kitchen.
Opening the fridge you grabbed another water bottle and drank away at it. The only thing you let your body have. Other than a banana if you really needed it. But you would always tell yourself no. No more weight.
You never felt good in your body. Seeing all the magazine shoots with the models made you insecure. All they put out was pictures of flawless girls. Not matter now many pictures you looked at none of them had a body like you. But you wanted it.
As soon as you boyfriend tom left to go away filming a year ago you stopped eating mostly for the first four months. But when he came back you ate a little more than you would for the five months he was back. But when he when he went away again you ate nothing. Hardly anything.
You were finally getting down to the size. But still didn't feel good enough. You hated yourself. No you shouldn't. You have a lot of fans that adorn and look up to you but you need to love yourself before others do.
Grumbles were leaving your stomach as you made your way to the bathroom.
You did your business as you would then went and washed your hands. You looked up to the mirror and looked at yourself. You looked flushed. You didn't even look like you. Not healthy one bit. Your under eyes were so dark you couldn't believe it and you skin was super pale, even more pale then when you are sick.
You looked away then made your way out of the bathroom your image still flooding your head. Knowing Tom was coming home soon you knew you needed to make an effort.
You grabbed some leggings out of your draw then a white scoop crop top to go with it. You then walked over to the mirror and looked at yourself for the first time in a while.
You looked way to skinny, but didn't even realize it yourself. Your bones were pushed out and you couldn't even look at it yourself. But you still hated it.
Finally distracting yourself from your image you walked out of you room and into the living room. The cold hitting you like a slap on the face all you wanted to do was lay on the couch with the blanket wrapped around you. So you did that and had no thoughts of moving for a while.
Watching the tv you then heard a knock at the door. You stood up and let the blanket slip off you and down to the floor. You made you way over and opened the door until you could see who it was. And there he was. Your boyfriend you have missed for what felt like forever.
The first thing you did was go straight in for a hug and his scent filled your nose immediately. You heard him let out a sigh of relief into your neck and that made you hug into him even more.
As you pulled away you both went in for a long awaited kiss and let's say those lips you missed the most were finally back. As you both pulled back you smiled before you spoke.
'Did you have a good time away then' you said as you closed the door that you didn't realize was still open.
'It was great we got so much done but I did really miss you but how was everything back here' he said as you walked in front of him and walked away and before you could reply he spoke again.
'Y/n' he said in a soft voice, which then made you turn around and face him.
'Yes baby' you said as you turned around and met those dark brown eyes which were above his darks circles showing his hard work.
