This does mention the reader having a hard time trying to conceive so if you don't like reading about that or anything then don't read it x
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'Tom what if it is negative again' you said as you bursted out of the bathroom with the pregnancy test in your hand which you just took and you were faced with tom sat on your bed.
The nerves you had were unreal, this was you now sixth time taking a pregnancy test and each time you swear it gets scarier and scarier. The two minutes you have to wait for that test feel like a life time.
Unfortunately last year you and tom both went to the doctors and found out that it would be hard for you to conceive. Now, there is still a chance but it will be hard and from the experience you have had, it is hard.
You wanted kids so bad and so did tom and you felt like it was on your that you could not carry, it was horrible. No matter how many time tom reassures you, you always feel down about it. You knew he wanted a child bad and you would say even more than you did.
'Don't worry darling, we can just hope and try again' he said as he stood up with a sympathetic smile on his face and walked over to you and pulled you into his chest for a tight hug and his chin rested on your fore head.
'Yeah but tom this is the sixth try and I'm really worried what if it doesn't work' you said as you both pulled away from each other.
His hands came up and cupped your cheeks and you hands grabbed both of them. You look at him in the eyes and you could have stayed like that forever. Those eyes, those dark hazel but those eyes were something you had never seen before you met tom. They were absolutely perfect. He was perfect.
'There is other ways darling, I promise this will work for us, I really do' he said as he placed a kiss on your forehead. You shut your eyes to prepare yourself to walk over and grab the test and see what it said.
You had a gut feeling it was going to be negative but so deep down you wanted it to be positive.
'Tom I'm scared' you said as you placed your hand over the faced down test on your dresser table. He looked just as worried as you and he nodded his head in response for you to pick it up.
You took in a deep breath and shut your eyes as you picked it up. When it was in front of you, you opened your eyes to something you did not want to see. You swear you felt your heart shatter right there.
The tears instantly came to your eyes, you didn't know what to do or say but cry. Within an instant you were in toms arms as he said 'shhhh' to you to calm you down.
'It's okay baby' he said as he rocked you to stop you from crying. You could hear with the croakyness of his voice, he was crying too and you hated it when he cried.
'Tom this is just my fault, I can't give you what you want and I'm sorry...i...I just can't' you sobbed out as you both eventually ended up on the floor together, still hugging so tightly.
'Hey..hey look at me' he said as he pulled away from you and you met his blood shot, teary eyes.
'I have what I want right here and that's you, this is not your fault okay there is still chances but we just need to wait until it works and no matter how many time we have to try I will he will too' he said as he took your hand and held it so securely like he was never going to let go and with his other hand he whipped the tear that slipped down his cheek.
'I'm just scared tom because what if it doesn't work' you said and saying those words broke you, this was horrible and you hated it.
'If it's not impossible then we can do it love okay..you just need to calm down' he said as he pulled you into him again.
Yes the doctor still said you had a chance but what if that chance is smaller now or if you just can't ever have children. All these bad thoughts rushed through your head in a matter of seconds. You didn't want to let this defeat you. Tom wanted this so bad and you didn't want to let him down but the same is for you, you wanted this badly so you will keep trying for you and tom to become a family of three.
'I love you okay' he said as he pulled away and smiled at you as he used his thumb to wipe away the tears that fell. You smiled back to him as a way of relief because when he wasn't too stress that helped you out.
'I love you too' you said as you kissed tom lightly on the lips. As always butterflies filled your stomach because those kisses never got old.
'Do you promise you aren't annoyed at me' you said as you pulled away and sat recovering yourselves for a little while.
'Y/n we are in this together, of course I am not annoyed, this will take however long it takes and when it finally works it will be worth it okay' he said as he smiled and stood up and grabbed your hand signalling you to follow what he did.
You then stood up and smiled at him as you pulled yourself into his body with your arms wrapped around his waist and you looked up to meet his eyes. The love and compassion you seen in those Eyes was endless.
Without even replying you kissed him again. You were both very passionate with kissing but it was never too much. But you love it.
'Okay' you said pulling away and looking up to him and a smile rose onto his face. He look upset but still so happy. You now he will take this hard as it's the sixth time but the thing with tom as that he will never give up and he will think of all the options possible and you loved him for that. This would be a hard day getting this news but, you will both stick together no matter what.
This was a hard time, this is a hard thing to get over but the only thing you can do is try again and well that is what you are both going to do and no matter how many times it takes, you will get there one day.
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Omg who is existed for the 'onward' movie that will be out in 2020 with tom in!!! I'm sooo existed and also Chris Pratt, I'm super existed!!!
So update I still have loadsss of work to do and I really want a McDonald's but it's like a while away so I can't :(
But yeah if you have any requests let me know :)
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