Soooooo...... I said I finished this book but then realised I didn't want to so here I am BACK and I'm going to keep writing so if u have any requests let me know!!! Hope u enjoy x
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Today was the day that you had been looking forward too ever since Tom left two months ago for filming, he was finally coming home.
You missed him so much, just like you usually would when he went away but each time it did get easier because you knew he was coming back at some point and FaceTiming wasn't too bad.
Not having him round was hard. When someone lives with you every hour of everyday then aren't there it's weird to say the least.
But when he goes you loose habits of things, you go back to your old ways. Which is not eating a damn thing. Not eating was something you liked to do because you knew it resulted in weight loss and being insecure it's exactly what you needed.
When Tom notices you aren't eating he sorts it out right away, you could never get away with missing a meal. But when he isn't here, there is no one here to make you eat.
Water is a must everyday and if food was to come up, it would only be fruit or veg and it would be near to nothing. Just how you liked it.
This habit has been something you have has since a young age. Being that girl who got bullied for her weight has traumatised you. People don't realise that their words they say at ten years old stays with that person for the rest of their life, and here I am still haunted by those comments.
You knew you were too thin, but you couldn't eat because you couldn't put weight on. You didn't want that image of 'she is putting weight on' but yet loosing it no one notices.
Tom was coming back in an hour of so, so you decided that you would do a small food shop before he comes home so he doesn't realise you haven't been eating.
You decided to go to the food shop just around the corner and as it's in walking distance you decided you would walk.
You put on some trainers and a big puffy jacket with a hat and scarf, brutish winter time is harsh. Grabbing your purse you left and locked the door behind you.
£30 later you were done and you wanted to be home quick so you could put everything away and give the house a last minute quick tidy.
Wasting no time the food was away and the Hoover was out and you were going around everywhere making sure there was nothing on the floors.
You were currently wearing some black joggers and a white bandeau because it's what you would usually wear to lounge around in.
As you were finished tidying up you decided to just chill on the couch and watch something until Tom came home.
Your stomach was going crazy just like it usually would when he was coming home. Having him back to cuddles with and chat with was something u had missed most because some of the things you two would talk about were too much to handle.
After watching the tv for an hour or so you heard a shout out from the front door.
'Love I'm home' god you missed that voice, as soon as food heard that his head came around the door. As soon as you both locked eyes with each other you instantly smiled.
You stood up and let the blanket fall off you as he walked towards you and pulled you into a hug.
'I missed you so much' he said as he snuggled into you neck and let out a sign. He always came back home stress free as the hard part off filming was over and he could now relax and getting that hug off you really made him feel stress free.
