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Opening up was hard for you. Even to the man who had changed you for the better. Tom had made you feel better as an individual and he still is to this day.
As you finally entered yours and toms shared apartment, the tears you had been holding in tried to escape and well one did.
Come on get it together.
You did not like crying around tom at all. You have had little cries to him but never a full on sob. You just didn't want to put that on him. You never wanted him to feel like it was because of him you were feeling like this but you knew he would.
You were in the apartment alone and thank god tom wasn't back you but you knew he would be soon. Slipping your shoes of at the door you catched a glimpse of yourself in the mirror.
Your eyes were blood shot and your checks were still a little wet from the tears you tried to wipe away before. You looked broke.
You started walking through the living room to your bedroom then heard the keys in the door.
Knowing it was tom you quickly went through your room and into the bathroom locking the door immediately. Knowing you were about to fill on sob you flushed the toilet and closed the lid and sat on it. To say the least it was loud.
Your head was in your hands as they started heating up from the tears that were leaving your eyes. You lets and along with your hand started to shake. The tears were coming incontrovertibly and because you broken that seal of the first tear you knew they wouldn't stop.
'Baby? You okay?' You heard tom say as you then sniffled your nose and the toilet noise stopped.
'Yeah I will just be a minute' you managed to get out through the limo that had formed in your throat. You turned on the tap and set your hand at the side of the sink holding you up and looking at yourself in the mirror once again.
'Love are you crying' you heard him say softly through the door. Even with a wall between you both he always knew what was going on.
'I honestly fine tom' you got out before you took in a deep breath preventing the tears from slipping out. You turned the tap of and silence arrived.
'Love open the door' you heard him say so close to the door he must of been leant on it. You walked over to the door and placed your head on it.
'I can't tom it's embarrassing you can't see me like this' you said as you slid down the door and your elbows rested on your knees that were close to your chest and you fists were clenched and you held on to your eye leaving on it.
'Darling it's okay..I promise just let me in.. I'm here for you always no matter what because I love you' his voice cracking half way through you knew he was getting emotional too.
'I'm scared I don't want you seeing me like this' you sobbed out to him and soft cries left your lips. Looking to the ground you didn't know what else to say or do.
He was so perfect. He had all this concern for you and you couldn't let him In.
'Baby I'm here and I love you come on okay' he said so softly and hearing him softly cry you swear you could do it all again. The sound of him cracking up broke your heart. He didn't deserve it. But in a way neither did you.
You stood yourself up and held the lock of the door. Not even whipping your watery eyes if wet face with all the courage you had you twisted the lock.
As soon as that door opened you found yourself in toms chest. The contact made you sob. But it also made you feel safe that you were back in his arms.
His body dropped down bringing you with him. You hands went into his chest gripping his shirt. You face went into his neck and you sobbed into it. His chin was then placed on your head and his hand was tracing up and down you back.
'Shhh' was all you kept getting as you were being rocked out of your tears. You were both still cuddled together rocking back and forth getting the last of your tears out as the worst part is over.
Your grip had loosened on tom shirt your had previously as your breathing levelled again. You let go of his shirt and let you hand travel to his hip and wrap around it.
From you movements and less sobs tom placed a kiss on your forehead. Still sat on the floor the rocks had slowly stopped as you had come around a bit.
In through the nose and out through the mouth. Tom was doing it with you as he was still tracing his fingers over your back.
You let out a sigh and not long after you felt toms had shift from the side of you. It connected to the side of your face and slowly your head was turned.
Your blood shot teary eyes met his. His went all puffy which I'm sure yours did too. His thumb went to the corner of your eye to wipe away the last tear in your eye. Followed he wiping away some on your face.
'I'm sorry tom' you said looking up at him. A light smile comes onto his face as he rubs your face then tucks some hair behind your ear and moves the hair out of your face.
'Don't be silly baby I'm always here' he said back to you as he lowered his hand and reached to yours. He gripped it and gripped it tight showing he was there.
'Want to talk about it now' he said looking into your eyes. Your heat dropped.
Still embarrassed by the whole situation that just happened and how Sudden it was. He loved you. He cares and he is there for you. This boys is your everything and if he is going to be your everything he needs to know everything.
Knowing you were ready to open up you looked into those dreamy eyes agin as your heart slowed itself down again.
'Yes I'm ready now' you let out as he let out a smile and so did you. Feeling a weight lift off your shoulder you knew this was the right thing to do.
'Go on, I'm here I promise' he said as he tucked that last stand of hair behind your ear. As he says he really was always there for you. No matter what.
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My friend actually gave me this idea so thanks to her for this real one. Hope you liked it guys :)
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