Everyone deals with life differently. I'm more of the type to bottle things up. Of course some would say that's not healthy and it may not be, but that's all I've known up to this point. Every now and then, it boils over and for days I'm lost waitin...
Author POV Since we last saw our two main characters, a few things have changed. Kina, after a couple months of hanging out with Larry, decided that she wanted to try a relationship with him. Larry has gotten better with switching between who he is in sessions with Kina at work and who he is during their personal time. The two have covered a lot of ground with Kina's treatment as well. Kina has come to terms with the death of her father. Her siblings are speaking to her again. She's even began to trust people again which for her was quite a feat. The next topic to approach is the reason Kina came back to try therapy again. Jordan...
Larry POV Kina and I are finally dating and so far it has been amazing. She's starting to take down those walls she built up around her heart. It's truly a beautiful thing to witness. She's been trying so hard in therapy to get back to her old self before life made that person hide away. I'm so proud of her and to show her, I'm taking my baby on our first real date. I know she don't like flashy stuff so hopefully a nice dinner and a movie will be good. I made all the arrangements this morning before her session. I can't wait to tell her!
Kina POV This morning hasn't been the best for me. I dreamed of him last night for the first time in a long time. I used to stalk his social media sites to see how he was doing without me. He seemed happy. He was in a new relationship and she was nothing like me. She was super innocent like the girl that grew up in a church and never did anything that would be considered out of line. I was envious of her. I wanted his love like I had had it before. He never seemed like the type to like an innocent girl. After all, he wasn't very innocent himself. He was quite the opposite. I guess he just wanted a change after dealing with me. I should get up and get dressed. I have a session with Larry in a couple hours and I still need to try to eat. I walk into the bathroom and turn on the shower water. As it gets warm I start to have flashbacks of Jordan and I being silly in my bathroom. Him trying to get in the shower with me even though we both had to get to work. It didn't turn bad until I realized how much we both were smiling. We were happy together at some point. I still don't know what happened to us. He seemed to understand me but I guess I was wrong. Ugh! Okay, enough obsessing! If it wasn't for that stupid dream, I wouldn't have even opened that door to that line of thinking. I showered and brushed my teeth. I put my hair in a messy bun and threw on a jumpsuit. I made some eggs and bacon really quick since I didn't have much time before I had to leave. I scarfed the food down and grabbed my keys on the way out the door. I had to run back in because I forgot my phone. I checked it riding down on the lift. Of course there's a good morning text from Larry.
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By the time I made it to the car I had a full blown Koolaid smile going. I had forgotten my troubles even if only for a moment. I drove to the center listening to music and singing, something I used to do every time I get in the car. When I arrived, I checked in with Charlotte ghetto ass. I'm surprised she hasn't been fired yet. Larry told me she had said some rude things about me and he told her off. I wish I had gotten the chance to see it. Now when I see her I make sure to be as annoying as possible. I get a laugh out of it as I sit in the waiting room. I sent Larry a text to say I arrived. He text back saying he was coming out in a second. I wait patiently playing a game on my phone. Until I hear him...
Larry: *clears throat* Ma'am, you can come this way. Kina: Ok. L: Please remember where we are. I'm going to need you to behave and try not to be so darn cute. K: This is the one place where I'm sure my face is anything but cute. L: I beg to differ, but I'll let you have that one. Ok we're here so just remember behave.
Larry POV It's been a struggle trying to keep business and pleasure separate with Kina being my patient. I take a little time before each session to get my mind right. Today is probably going to be rough for her. I hope our date cheers her up afterwards. We walk into the session room and have a seat. Dr. Lynn as always is sitting in the observation room. I want to get a feel for how Kina is doing today so I figure we can start there.
L: Good morning Kina. How are we doing today? K: I'm good. Had a rough start this morning but I'm trying to stay positive. L: Well that's good. You wanna explain why you had a rough start?
Kina gets quiet and I feel like I know why. I was hoping this session wouldn't dredge up too many bad memories before we had a chance to talk about it here. Maybe it was just wishful thinking.
L: You can take your time. Remember you're safe here and those memories are just that, memories. They can't hurt you anymore. K: But it does hurt... L: What does? K: Remembering him and how happy I was with him. L: Jordan? *Kina winces at the mention of his name* K: I-I had a dream about him last night, but then I woke up and he was gone. It made me feel kind of empty like I did when he left me. L: Why don't we start from the beginning with how you met? K: *sighs*
Kina POV I met Jordan right after my ex husband and I decided to call it quits. I loved him but we were in two different places mentally and maturity wise so I had to let him go. I wasn't really looking for anything with anyone at that time but when I saw him, I just couldn't help myself. He was beautiful. Light skinned, amazing body and his smile had to have been handcrafted by God. I saw him at the gym one day while getting ready to go somewhere with a friend. A buddy of mine introduced us and as it turned out he was coming to the event I was working later that evening.
When we saw each other at the event, we talked some more and found that we had a lot in common. I wrote my number down on a piece of paper from my purse and discreetly gave it to him before he left. I wasn't ready to have people in my business so soon after the fallout from my divorce. He texted me later that night and that's where all of the trouble began.
L: Ok so you made the first move? Is that common for you or how you were before? K: It wasn't always but I feel like women miss a lot of opportunities waiting for men to make a move. I had had enough of guys telling me years later how they had always liked me so I began putting myself out there more. In hindsight it probably wasn't the best idea. L: Why do you think that? K: Every time I made the first move, the relationship ended badly. L: Ok I can see your point. So how were things following that night?
A/N: I'll be working on part two to this tonight! Hopefully it will be done before the weekend is over. Vote and comment! Until then my lovelies!😘
