He Heals Me

Chapter 22: Her

Larry POV

It's been a week. A whole fucking week...and I haven't seen her face or heard her voice. She requested to space her next few appointments out so she had more time to go over the events of the last one. Dr. Lynn agreed much to my dismay. To say I've been upset is an understatement. She doesn't text me back nor does she answer my calls. I can't imagine what she must be going through all alone in her house. I couldn't help driving past her house on my way to and from work each day. I had hoped I would get a glimpse of her. I wanted to know how she was. There were times when I would park and just stare up at her loft. Creepy I know, but I'm so worried. Yesterday I told Dr. Lynn that I wanted welfare checks to be conducted. She agreed only if she be allowed to conduct them and also only by phone. It did little to stop my worrying but at least it was something. At least I would know she was alive. Today will be the first call and I can not wait to find out how she is.

Dr. Lynn came down the hallway to find me already waiting out of the office. I didn't sleep well. I ended up waking up early and getting ready instead of my usual routine. She doesn't look the least bit surprised as she unlocks the door and walks into the office. We go in and take seats in our desks. It's quiet. Awkwardly quiet. The air is full of my angst and I can't take it anymore.

L- She hasn't spoken to me since the last appointment. I...I can't do this waiting. I just want to know when you will call her and can I hear her voice?
Doc- I can call her now and yes you may listen if you say nothing. I know this is hard but you understand what hangs in the balance.
L- I do and thank you.

Dr. Lynn picks up the desk phone and dials her number. She presses the speaker button and we wait for Kina to answer. I hold my breath and prepare to hear the sound. After three rings, my heart drops into my stomach as that beautiful sound flow into my ears.

K- Hello?
Doc- Good morning Kina. Did I catch you at a bad time?
K- No, it's fine. What's going on?
Doc- I'd like to start having check in calls since you're not following your normal scheduled appointments. What do you think?
K- I guess that's okay. How often will we have to do that?
Doc- Every other day for the time being and we can change as necessary.
K- Seems reasonable.
Doc- So how are you?
K- I'm doing better. My mind is clearer. I just feel like I've made a fool of myself once again. Embarrassed is really the strongest emotion I feel.
Doc- You know there's no reason to feel that way. You fell for a man who loves you the way you want to be loved. You just have to practice more healthy thinking patterns so that you don't feel so lost if something were to happen.
K- Is it bad that I haven't spoken to him?
Doc- What do you think?
K- I think it's unfair to leave him in the dark. I just needed some space to get it together. The first couple of days were pretty bad.
Doc- How so?
K- Lots of crying. Not getting up from my couch until by bladder screamed at me. I just couldn't accept it. I got up the third day though. I refused to go back to living like that. It felt good to do it alone. I know Larry would've been there to help if I had spoken to him.
Doc- I feel that assessment is accurate. I'm glad that you were able to come out of it alone. So you have an appointment coming up in a couple days, is that still the plan?
K- Yes. I'm ready to move forward with recovery.
Doc- Wonderful. I'm happy to hear that. Is there anything you'd like to say or talk about before I let you go?
K- Is.....he mad at me?
Doc- I think you should ask him that yourself. I'm sure he's worried about you.
K- Yeah I bet you're right.
Doc- Well I'll let you go.
K- Okay. Bye bye.
Doc- Goodbye Kina.

The whole time I held my hand over my mouth to make sure I didn't speak. I found myself feeling so relieved that she was okay at first. But then, I found myself feeling angry. If she worked it out in 3 days, then why four extra days of silence from her? Dr. Lynn sat quietly watching my wheels turn as I worked it out in my head. I thought about what she could've been doing the last four days that meant she couldn't speak to me. I felt a headache coming on. Then I heard my phone go off. It was her. I know because her ringtone is special. I felt all my anger melt away just as fast as it had come. I pulled it out of my pocket and read the message.

L- Doc, I need to go. Is it okay?
Doc- I imagine you do. Go ahead. I have a light load today.
L- You're amazing. If I've never told you that, you should know.
Doc- Get out of here before I change my mind.

I jump up, grabbing my bag, and book it out of the building. I don't think she'd make me stay but I was overly excited to see my baby. I got to my car and slid in quickly, tossing my bag in the backseat. The engine rev'd to life and my foot was the gas in the next second. I flew to Kina's. In hindsight, I'm not sure that all those lights were green, but I was here now and thankfully I didn't crash. I got out of the car and started to walk up to her building. It suddenly felt like my feet were heavy. My palms were getting sweaty. I have no idea why I'm so nervous when I should be elated. Maybe because I wasn't sure which emotion she'd see when I see her. I pushed the buzzer and heard her voice. I was so conflicted I couldn't speak. My throat felt drier than the Sahara. I just stood there looking down embarrassed when I realized I couldn't speak. My eyes shot up to the speaker when I heard her again.

K- Come up Larry.

Her voice was quiet but I heard her. The lift opened and I walked in pushing the button to close the doors behind me. My heart was pounding in my chest. What is up with me? The lift makes it to her floor while I'm still trying to sort out my feelings. The doors open and standing in her doorway is my baby, my heart, my love, my everything. I get teary eyed walking out of the lift. I just look at her and she just stares back. Her eyes tear up to match the tears now sliding down my cheeks. I can't stand to see it. I move quickly forward swooping her up into my arms and squeezing her to my body like she might disappear. She wraps her legs around my waist while I walk us into her apartment closing the door behind us. I sit us down on the couch with her in my lap, refusing to let her go. We sat like that for a long time, ignoring all of the conversations that needed to happen. I don't think I've ever been more thankful for silence.

A/N: Long time no see. Since I'm stuck in the house I should at least give you guys a chapter or two, right? Hope you like it. Vote and comment as always 😘Until next time lovelies!