He Heals Me

Chapter 20: What is more?

Larry POV

I'd finished cleaning the session room and going over my notes from today with Dr. Lynn. I honestly feel like I didn't accomplish much due to my reaction to what Kina said.

Doc- Out with it Larry. You've been moping around this office since Kina left. What's the problem?
L- I feel like you should be the one to talk to Kina about sex.
Doc- Why is that?
L- Because it's hard for me. I just feel like when she say some things I can't keep my mind clear and on task.
Doc- I can understand that. I feel like you handled her comments well. While you did cut the session a little short today, I do think we reached the issue that we're dealing with.
L- I'm lost. We barely covered the topics on the clipboard.
Doc- You didn't need to. You have a way of getting inside her boundaries. I believe she really does trust you. Whereas if I had been in there we would have spent hours toying with questions until I maybe got an ounce of the information you got.
L- What did you hear that I didn't? I feel like I got nowhere.
Doc- Well she feels pressured by society to uphold an image that's respectable. In trying to do that she fell out of touch with her sexual nature. Bad experiences have shaped her views on her self worth and  why men want her. While I do agree it should be molded properly, I think if we could remove the reason why she feels shame about it, she'll progress.
L- See if you could come to that conclusion and I can't, you should be in there.
Doc- I'm more experienced in interpretation but Kina will talk with you and feel comfortable. She won't feel weird about expressing herself. It would be hard to start on a sensitive subject like sex with me in there with her.
L- I guess it just puts a lot on my mind. I mean she has not said she loves me back. How can we move into a real sexual relationship without being on the same page?
Doc- Do you think she loves you?
L- I think she feels safe, comfortable and loved with me. Her feelings are harder to read when it comes to me.
Doc- She's gotten very good at picking and choosing what she wants people to know. I can see it though. Pay attention to how she looks at you. I wish you could see what I see.
L- What do you see?
Doc- Admiration and pride. Things typically shown when you look at someone you love. Take heed to my words, don't push it. Let it flow naturally. She will tell you in her own time.
L- What about her wanting to have sex?
Doc- Let her lead. If you're not ready then let her know. Love is complicated enough on its own without sex. *chuckles*
L- Tell me about it. Well I'm done cleaning so I think I'm going to head out if you don't need anything.
Doc- Have a good evening Larry.
L- You too Dr. Lynn.

Kina POV

I made a decision after my session today. I have a lot to do to prepare for the evening that I want to have. First I went to get waxed. I didn't have much down there but whatever was there I wanted gone. After getting the worse part over I made an appointment to get my hair silk pressed. While I waited for that time, I went to the mall and found some nice undies and a dress. I still had time left so I got my nails done. Larry has been texting me since I left the waxing place but I refuse to let him in on the surprise. He asked when he could come over but I told him not until later. I'll let him know when I'm almost ready.

I got to my hair appointment right on time and was taken care of promptly. I can't remember the last time I let someone else do my hair. I haven't really been taking care of myself. I made a mental note to change that. When I got up from the chair, I was so happy with the results. The only thing left to do was go home, cook and get dressed.

Meanwhile....

Larry POV

Kina acting real strange. She say she want me to come over after her session. Then when I text her I'm going to come over, she tell me no and to wait. I swear I don't understand women. I try to make conversation and ask what she doing. She say nothing. I'm thinking if she's not doing anything and she don't want me to come over, something must have happened. I text her asking if she's okay. She replies yes. I ask her if something happened. She say no. At this point, I'm just confused. I make it home and go inside. I decide to do a little cleaning since I've been hanging out at Kina's a lot lately. I should invite her over soon and cook for her. I think she'd like that. I start the laundry before going to give the bathroom a good scrub. I reorganize my hair products and put them where they go. After scrubbing the tub, sink, and toilet, I cleaned the mirror. Satisfied with that room, I moved on to my room. Not too much was out of place so I just emptied the trash and vacuumed my carpet.
I went into the living room and did the same. I was sitting on the couch folding clothes when I got a text from Kina saying to come over at 830. She specified to dress nice but not too much. That must be why she didn't want me to come over earlier. She's plotting on me. I chuckled thinking about what she could be up to. I text her back that I'd be there then went back to folding clothes. I have plenty of time before I have to get dressed so I wanted to finish cleaning. After I put up the clothes, I washed the little bit of dishes in the sink. A shower was in order right about now. I wanted to be fresh for whatever my baby had in mind.